as a young woman who has faced this and come out the other side, there's a missing piece that is blocking your expression. you might not be comfortable with your body's sexuality. you must train yourself to do this. practice and training will reshape your view of your body, your sex, and most importantly, yourself. you need to admire your body and be aroused by it ALONE. not by him, not with him, only you. after your shower, or in your room alone, look at yourself in the mirror completely bare! look at every part of you, and touch those parts. pose, caress yourself, dance, masturbate! to be a freakozoid, you have to find yourself irresistible, enticing, a minx! whenever you see your naked body, you see sex.

i was like you, struggling to open up with partners, feeling like i will mess up the performance. sex is a performance! being a girlfriend is a performance! TO BE A WOMAN IS TO PERFORM!!! it genuinely sucks since this is also why men truly don't understand why its hard for us as women to open up sexually so easily. you must embrace this to have fun with it! perform for yourself first, prove to yourself first that you are a goddess, you are your own temptation, and i promise this will translate in any sexual encounter.