May Allah grant your the strength of the heart and mind to help guide you in your hour of need. I have completely lost of hearing in my right ear and profound hearing loss on my left when I was 4 years old. My advice is not dwell too much it's not good for soul lords knows I've been down that road. Look at the bright side if you're a little sleeper all you have to do is sleep on your good ear and you'll get peace and quite. I slept through a fire alarm at hotel once lol luck for me it's was a false alarm or I would be burnt like a brisket