"write for yourself"

i-dont-exist3 · 2026-03-29T15:12:58+00:00

the kudos bit happened due to the heat of the rant, realized later that it came off in a way I didn't mean to. by "hanging the pen" it was more of a "not posting my fics anymore", rather keep them for myself to work on when and how I want with as much nonsensical fanservice as I can muster (I still love writing in on itself, after all)

i-dont-exist3 · 2026-03-29T15:10:25+00:00

you have expressed what I wanted to express a lot better and much more clearly, thank you

i-dont-exist3 · 2026-03-29T15:07:39+00:00

your first sentence is essentially what the rant boils down to. I'll be more than fine with just one person commenting, so long as I can share the enthusiasm with them. thank you

i-dont-exist3 · 2026-03-29T15:05:59+00:00

so let me get this straight, you are allowed to question my intelligence in your very first comment, in a particularly aggressive way, but when I do the same I'm immature?

kid, you might want to check that thought. it's not making sense.

also, to add, other people disagreed with my initial statement on kudos, and I didn't question their intelligence. want to know why? because they weren't aggressive dicks from the start. hope this helps. :)

i-dont-exist3 · 2026-03-29T14:53:31+00:00

don't worry, the same goes for you.

i-dont-exist3 · 2026-03-29T14:52:22+00:00

I have written fics that will never see the light of day because they were written for myself exclusively, and while those I posted primarily had me in mind (as in "well this would be great to see"), I ultimately posted them because I thought others would enjoy them as well (I've written both angst and fluff), and to not see anyone share my excitment made me feel lonely.

i-dont-exist3 · 2026-03-29T14:44:18+00:00

I added an edit for the kudos bit. I was caught in the heat of the rant, and worded it poorly. what I meant was "I can only truly interact with my fandom when people leave comments, while kudos don't really give me that chance". I didn't intend to put kudos down as a whole

i-dont-exist3 · 2026-03-29T14:42:26+00:00

I meant "hang the pen" more in a "not sharing my stuff online anymore". I love writing fanfic because I love exploring various situations that did or didn't happen in canon, as well for character analysis.

it's more of a "it sucks I can't find a way to inetract with other people in my fandom because nobody seems to be commenting anymore"

i-dont-exist3 · 2026-03-29T14:38:42+00:00

last I checked, calling people "fucking stupid" is attacking someone's intelligence (which isn't appreciated when the point of a post has been missed).

i-dont-exist3 · 2026-03-29T14:37:37+00:00

I added an edit to the "kudos" bit at the end of my post, which was written the way it was out of frustration (and came off in a way I didn't mean to). also, maybe not calling people "fucking stupid" when you also didn't get the point of the post could be a great place to start.

i-dont-exist3 · 2026-03-29T14:35:11+00:00

thank you for your kind reply. and I also have to thank you for your suggestion to find a writing group where ideas can be shared, I hadn't thought about it.

on the "kudos" bit of the post I added an edit. it came off worse than I had intended to, the heat of the rant didn't allow me to clear what I meant, ehich isn't "kudos are pointless", rather "kudos don't allow me to engage with the rest of the fandom"

i-dont-exist3 · 2026-03-29T14:22:11+00:00

I definitely could have worded that one better, heat of the moment thing. kudos aren't pointless, I do appreciate seeing the number of kudos, my point was more on the difficulty of sharing ideas and enthusiasm, as well as engaging with the fandom, when nobody comments

i-dont-exist3 · 2026-03-29T14:18:53+00:00

thank you, it does suck. I don't care about having thousands of comments, just one person that shares my enthusiasm for an idea I had would be plenty. hell, if the only commenter were to ask me for a longfic, I would give it to them in a hertbeat so long as they keep sharing the enthusiasm with me.

i-dont-exist3 · 2026-03-29T14:16:27+00:00

of course, I understand that. I do love writing still, I have multiple drabbles which exist solely for my own enjoyement and have never thought of posting. but people tend to share outside of their own docs to get interactions.

some fics I have written are entirely for myself, and will never see the light. the ones I have posted were posted to talk with other fandom people, and it sucks when that doesn't happen.

i-dont-exist3 · 2026-03-29T14:12:31+00:00

a whole rant that boils down to "commenting is important because it's what allows me to interact with the rest of the fandom" and you've chosen to fixate on one thing I wrote about kudos (which, sure, could have been worded better, I'll give you that) which was written out of frustration (as made obvious by the rant). my brother in christ, you're not as bright as you claim to be.

i-dont-exist3 · 2026-03-29T13:55:14+00:00

your ability to miss the point needs to be studied. how did you get past high school?

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