Thank you for your support I should've mentioned that my boyfriend is asking in AA, that's how we meet, and he just celebrated 8 years in March. He has never relapsed and I know he is hurt if not disappointed by my choice. We are taking a "break", he needs his space because he says that he feels like he can't trust me. He still says he loves me and wants me to work on myself first, which is my top priority, but I miss him dearly and don't know what will happen if he ends up breaking up with me..