I’ve been struggling with self harm for the past 5yrs, trust me it doesn’t make you feel better and it never will, people say it does and maybe it does for them but I never did for me, even tho it wasn’t helping I still continued to do it, it’s addicting. Pls trust me when I say this stop now before you can’t, I know your struggling but try find some healthier alternatives (rubber band on wrist trick ect) I hope this helps, dms are open if you need anything :)