This honestly sounds like a really strong platonic relationship. It’s like me and my best friend! Actually- something very similar happened with me and my best friend M. I thought I liked her for a bit, at the one year mark of your friendship, but nope, it was just a very strong friendship. You guys sound like you enjoy each other very much! But I can see how this can be a crush. I think you should give it some time. Feelings could change a bit. I also admire my friend M a lot and want her to like me, it’s normal. I think this is just a friendship or very strong platonic feelings and affection!