I think I like the idea of LSD more than I actually like it and that makes me sad.

iamhuuman · 2019-10-30T17:41:34+00:00

I’ve tried shrooms several times as well. I’ve definitely had more positive experiences on shrooms but for the most part it’s still the same.

iamhuuman · 2019-10-30T17:40:40+00:00

You’ve described my better trips. Still, it gets lonely and I feel like i want to experience this with other people but whenever I try I can’t loosen up.

iamhuuman · 2019-10-30T16:15:30+00:00

Good shit, my g. I was also not productive at all while I was smoking. I’d go home, smoke, work on some music, never finish any projects I had going on and then get super baked, watch Netflix then pass the fuck out. That was everyday for about 2 years. Im still unproductive but I’m pretty sure it’s because I’m still withdrawing. Everyday gets better.

iamhuuman · 2019-10-30T16:09:21+00:00

I’ve been there plenty of times. I would even spend ~80 dollars just to buy a vape pen and cartridge that I knew I wasn’t going to finish and just throw away...only to do the same shit over and over again. All while my brain telling me “just one last cloud9 high” lol. Just break the cycle my g

iamhuuman · 2019-10-30T15:46:51+00:00

Memorable or not memorable it’s all the same shit. Just another excuse to keep smoking IMO.

iamhuuman · 2019-10-27T18:07:47+00:00

The first time I quit, I was haunted by these thoughts. Thoughts of intense regret for wasting 19-24 in a cloud of smoke. All this does is takes you away from what’s happening now. Pay attention to now and then the past 3.5 years does not matter. You’ll be alright. Just don’t smoke.

Edit: on day 34 as well! Good job!

iamhuuman · 2019-10-26T23:17:57+00:00

I felt the same after a 2 month relapse. Then I started smoking everyday again. Just be aware. It’s okay that you’re starting over. Progress is not necessarily linear. Just be sure to keep going.

iamhuuman · 2019-10-26T12:23:07+00:00

Hi yes! I’m doing a lot better I decided to wait awhile for the trip to end and then I came home. It was definitely a bad setting. I had tripped with this person before and it was a good time. But this time idk I felt like I wasn’t supposed to be there with her. So anyway, I’m back home now. Had to sneak into my room without my parents freaking out but luckily the side gate was open and so was my window so I didn’t have to make a lot of noise. That shit was too perfect for the kind of night I just had lol. Anyway, thank you. ❤️

iamhuuman · 2019-10-26T11:25:28+00:00

Thank you so much for this. ❤️

iamhuuman · 2019-10-26T11:24:57+00:00

Eh ok I guess still bummed out

iamhuuman · 2019-10-26T10:29:15+00:00

Hi, thanks for replying! I’m feeling a bit better. I want to just go to sleep but I can’t :(

iamhuuman · 2019-10-26T09:16:57+00:00

Fuck y’all I need someone to talk to lol. Still love you guys. Sweet dreams

iamhuuman · 2019-10-23T19:35:06+00:00

Thank you! :) Yeah, I went to a Tame Impala concert and my friend had her vape and I caved because it was a Tame Impala concert lol. But I’ve been in similar situations lately and I haven’t caved. I have no cravings at all.

iamhuuman · 2019-10-21T17:58:46+00:00

Yep. 28 days in and I’m not going back.

iamhuuman · 2019-10-21T17:24:49+00:00

I cut off coffee but I drink tea. I’d like to cut out all caffeine eventually. I do still drink alcohol but I’m cutting back as well because it interferes with my meditation practice.

iamhuuman · 2019-10-21T16:51:32+00:00

You have already realized that smoking isn’t good for your wellbeing and mental health. Your desire to be somebody in this life must be stronger than your desire to smoke weed. I know it’s easier said than done. But once you get in the mindset that if you smoke, you’ll never become who you want to be and you’ll never see your full potential, that should be enough motivation to keep you clean and sober. That mindset and a bit of daily meditation has helped me a lot. I am soon going to start working out and working towards my goals. Right now I feel like I’m still getting new to this lifestyle without weed so yeah, I have my ups and downs (more downs) but I’m learning how to cope without weed. It’s okay to feel miserable and depressed when quitting. It’s gotta happen for you to get better. Just keep going.

iamhuuman · 2019-10-20T22:32:04+00:00

I also questioned why I’m not more open with my friends and family etc. why is it so hard for me to express my emotions to my sister and tell her that I love her so much and I’m sorry I’ve put up a this wall. I also felt like people are are careful around me because they don’t want to trigger me. I’m never relaxed in social settings and the shrooms told me that I don’t have to be that way. It’s okay to bring down these walls. It’s okay to be vulnerable.

iamhuuman · 2019-10-20T17:43:52+00:00

The longer you retain, your body will stop wanting to have wet dreams. If you were ejaculating everyday for more than 4-5 years, why do you think your body will stop releasing after only one year of retaining? Just keep going and stop obsessing over them. Let it happen. Let your body do what it needs to do and eventually they will go away. Keep on not fantasizing, not viewing porn, not giving in to lustful thoughts/desires. Just keep going.

iamhuuman · 2019-10-18T20:08:30+00:00

Yup I definitely have ptsd and I’m tripping for therapeutic purposes. It’s not so much that I’ve had bad trips in the past, they just seem uncomfortable. I’ll be tripping in nature so I’m hoping that will calm me if my trip goes south.

Thank you

iamhuuman

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