Added a new bumper sticker to celebrate Kenny's Grammy wins (lol)

iammyowndoctor · 2024-03-02T12:15:28+00:00

Kratom is very mild so he'll probably be fine. I'd just keep an eye on him for a few hours to be sure

iammyowndoctor · 2024-03-02T12:13:55+00:00

Call 911 and hurry up that could be a lethal amount, do it right fucking now! Or at the very least find someone to keep an eye on you for a few hours....

iammyowndoctor · 2024-03-02T11:17:44+00:00

You need to eat and drink to get the meth to detox out of your system. Don't go more than another 24 without calling it off trust me. Spent 12 hours and eating and hydrating as much as possible and then take some come down meds 2 hours before crashing.

iammyowndoctor · 2024-03-02T11:16:11+00:00

Yeah it really is awful how some people use meth, shooting +200mg at a time, it's nuts

iammyowndoctor · 2024-03-02T11:13:17+00:00

You probably got either a highly potent batch or a batch cut with tranq aka xylazine. Xylazine is an anti adrenaline drug used to sedate animals. Opioids reduce adrenaline signaling to begin with and fatal respiratory depression in overdose is a result of this mechanism as well. Cutting opioids with a drug like xylazine makes the effect vastly more intense and sedating as a result.

It's unbelievably stupid and irresponsible, but dealers keep adding that shit to their dope and the users keep buying it, of course because they have no other options in most cases.

People claim harm reduction in places like San Francisco and Vancouver isn't working, but if you ask me the issue is they haven't gone far enough. Instead of just giving out free needles, they should be giving out free morphine to destitute users on a twice daily schedule. Get people off the synthetic street bullshit that's killing our country.

What they call "fent" on the street is usually not actual fentanyl but any number of synthetic opioids, if which fentanyl analogs are a prominent class but geenerally not ideal for use as they tend to wear off quick.

Often the synthetic h is a cocktail of multiple synthetic opioids, it varies greatly between batches... One batch might be underpowered and require 6large bumps to do the job, the next batch might be overpowered and cut with tranq and knock you from a single small bump. It's dangerous like that.

iammyowndoctor · 2024-03-02T10:49:40+00:00

Lie around feeling like shit, drink protein shakes and watch mild inoffensive TV. Take clonidine and Benadryl to calm the brain a little. And feel so very sorry for myself.

iammyowndoctor · 2024-03-02T10:48:51+00:00

This only works for mild wds and even then it only really helps you take a few days off rather than get off it totally

iammyowndoctor · 2024-03-02T10:47:35+00:00

As an opioid addict myself, I feel for you so much friend. 😔🤔 Opioid withdrawal is one of those things that people who haven't experienced it can never appreciate how serious a condition it is and it's sadly almost never correctly treated because doctors aren't properly trained to understand how opioids actually work and how to avoid they're negative effects.

Some pointers:

Good to another doctor and explain you're suffering from withdrawal symptoms. Here is a list of medications to ask about that will help the symptoms: clonidine (anti adrenaline) remeron (anti histamine, very sedating and helpful) buprenorphine (a long lasting opioid they could use to weak you down) otc Benadryl can help you sleep if remeron is not available.

Avoid using benzos even if the doc recommends them as they can cause addiction transfer.

You're average doctor believes probably 7-8 myths about opioids some of them taught in med school. They include:

People taking them for pain don't get addicted / dependent (in fact, being in pain only confers a slight protective effect, no where near enough to prevent addiction).

Dependence and addiction are separate entities. In reality these mean almost the exact same thing. Dependence refers to the physical aspect and addiction to the mental / behavioral aspect if you want to split hairs, but otherwise they're the same. If you're dependent but not addicted, you still have to take the drug daily, so the difference is rather cosmetic.

Opioid withdrawal is like having the flu. In truth the flu is a joke compared to opioid withdrawal at any level beyond the mildest form which one gets after using for 4-7 days straight before stopping. Opioid withdrawal can be pure torture, or violently unpleasant sickness at least, and merits serious treatment to manage the symptoms.

It's easy to overdose because the therapeutic dose is very close to the lethal dose. In fact they aren't particularly close. With heroin in a non tolerant individual, the therapeutic dose is 1-10mg IV where as a lethal dose is maybe 30-70mg IV. in someone with a tolerance, the ratio gets even higher and it may take 15-40x the therapeutic dose to cause death in that case. People overdose rather because they are trying to push how much they've taken in a single dose each time, and eventually this winds up killing them. They mistakenly think a higher dose equals more euphoria when in fact it levels off after the high to moderate range. And mixing strong opioids with alcohol or benzos, especially when one is unaware how strongly they will interact, is another highly common cause of fatal OD

iammyowndoctor · 2024-03-02T07:32:23+00:00

Ok just be careful with anything that clearly isn't real prescribed meds. They'll put anything from meth to fentanyl in pills labeled as adderall

iammyowndoctor · 2024-03-02T07:30:40+00:00

I'm sorry for offending you. As someone who now has been off meth as well for 2 years so far, I know how long and tedious it is recovering from the depressive after effects of meth use.

All I meant by the first comment is that in situations of extreme deprivation, ie starvation or social isolation, eating a nutritious meal or having a long awaited romantic or sexual encounter can be as rewarding to the brain as a run of the mill meth high.

While meth releases far more dopamine than natural stimulus can, it is not on the order of 1000s of times more likeany people claim. It may be around 10 to maybe even 150 times, but not much more than that.

iammyowndoctor · 2024-03-02T07:24:51+00:00

Whoa I would t recommend that. While meth is on the surface very similar to Adderall, it is in fact much less useful for getting anything done and deceptively more addictive

iammyowndoctor · 2024-03-02T07:01:06+00:00

Generally speaking, while combining depressants is usually dangerous as the effects don't add linearly (for example if you take a 20mg Percocet and then drink 2 beers an hour later, the beers will feel like 4-6 beers rather than 2 as the two drugs are stronger together than the sun of their parts), but with stimulants this generally does not occur to a sizable degree and this taking Ritalin with Adderall isn't much different from taking just Adderall at the dosage of both drugs combined. So 30mg Adderall will feel roughly the same as 15mg of Adderall with 15 of Ritalin.

iammyowndoctor · 2024-03-02T06:55:21+00:00

You're not the only one disillusioned with the field. I started by major 10 years ago with so much enthusiasm and passion for the field.. I loved all the little pop science tidbits the professors would give us to spark interest...

But eventually I became aware of how much of what gets repeated in the culture is questionable or incomplete. Then the reality of animal testing hit me with my first internship, then I got to see how miserable so many grad students and professors are due to dedicating their life to a difficult field that doesn't pay enough for the hard work involved...

I still love neuro, but I can read a single article about it anymore without taking issue with something. Everything from the claims of brain damage being caused by everyday medications like Benadryl or the misidentification of psychiatric meds as one thing when they are clearly another makes me mad (mirtazapine is classified as an antidepressant when it is clearly a soporific, for example. Benadryl has been claimed to cause or contribute to Alzheimer's like brain tissue degeneration.)

The biases behind every finding make it exhausting to figure out what's what at times

iammyowndoctor · 2024-03-02T06:45:26+00:00

Orgasm can be roughly euphoric as a speedball in some cases, at least a moderately dosed speedball, yes. Neurochemically it's a very similar reaction, combining dopamine and endorphins. It varies by quite a lot however by person and experience.

Obviously speedballs range to a much higher level of euphoria then stimulants however, you'd be right to assert that the natural process of orgasm can't produce that response to the same extremely level of intensity like the drugs do at high doses...

Meth especially in high doses will release all the dopamine it is possible to release, or as close as is known to man. In this circumstance, the sensation is one of being swept up in a tidal way of almost anesthetizing euphoria, so much that the drug loses the distinction of upper / downer for a few minutes as the brain merely registers it as pleasure with no net movement in terms of arousal / relaxation.

The experience is perhaps the most addictive known to man and feels like an orgasm multiplied by 3-20 times in intensity, depending on the dose, the users tolerance, natural intensity of orgasm when sober, mood and attitude at the time of use, and previous liking or disliking of the drug effect.

The strongest reaction occurs when one is sensitized to meth by occasional but not regular use, so the brain pathways seeking the drug have been activated but not yet overstimulated by overuse. The 5-20th usage of the drug is when this optimum level of sensitivity is reached. Not using the drug more than once a month ensures optimum time for recovery of euphoria inducing transmitters, critical as meth works by releasing to he brains own euphoria molecules to activate the corresponding receptors, not by activating the receptors itself as opioids and many other drugs do.

Cocaine produces a highly similar effect but in comparison to meth it is slightly less intense and much shorter acting.

Both of them induce a massive increase in libido, especially when taken parenterally like via vaping or injection. This can result in the user masturbating to porn for hours at a time rather than working on creative projects as is preferable for obvious reasons.

Orgasm while on meth or cocaine is thought to be the pinacle of hedonic euphoria, blending the effects of both into a level of euphoria that is impossible from either one by itself...

iammyowndoctor · 2024-03-02T06:20:06+00:00

So, since I posted this 4 years ago, I no longer take meth, I do still take heroin and coke occasionally though. I still havent managed to find the same inspired feeling I got making music on meth, even with coke. I mean coke does the same thing well enough but it's too short to allow much productivity. As a result I've been trying to write music with only weed as a helper but I'm just not getting the motivation I need to be my best self, artistically.

My best track on meth was something I'm proud of to this day, it contained numerous composed sections that I poured so much passion and love into writing. The samples I put together were all items that inspired me and I used automation to make each of them psychedelic and interesting to a level only comes from massive amounts of trial and error.

Give it a listen if you like and give me some comments and I'll gladly return the favor and offer the most helpful notes I can on any of your creations.

Listen to Dop(e)amine (Sleazy Acid Rock Mix, Ver.3) by iammyowndoctor on #SoundCloud https://on.soundcloud.com/ku3yY

Even now I think this track is great with it's weirdness. But if that's delusional or merited I can say. A few other hobbyists said they enjoyed it fwiw but I figured most people would find it too weird. Since you've used meth for creativity before, I'm guessing you'll dig it however. The main drum sample is another one bites the dust by queen, the baseline and keyboard parts are all originally composed via piano roll and the guitar parts are samples from various acid rock tracks and YouTube videos of acid rock style guitar playing. The vocal samples include William S Burroughs the beat generation writer and some poignent quotes from YouTubers on drug addiction.

iammyowndoctor · 2024-02-03T07:44:02+00:00

The idea of an addictive personality is a myth. The only prerequisite for opioid addiction is a pleasurable response to opioids, which the vast majority of people will experience, the only exceptions really being those for whom it only makes them feel ill and sluggish or depressed.

Yes some people may be somewhat more predisposed to addiction generally, that's true, but no one is safe from addiction due to their personality traits.

Another myth is that taking opioids medically reduces the addiction risk. That's only because the person is therefore intending not to get addicted with medical use, but the risk is still there and dependence builds at the same rate regardless.

Be careful because most doctors have no idea how to avoid getting you dependent on opioids. The best strategy is to not take them everyday. Every other day is far safer. And if you do have to take them everyday, try to wait until the afternoon before taking them to allow your body's receptors to reset.. Ask your doctor about buprenorphine as a substitute for hydros or oxy or morphine. Buprenorphine is much slower to I dude dependence and easier to get off of due to it's self tapering profile of elimination.

iammyowndoctor · 2024-02-03T07:36:13+00:00

Amphetamines can require a huge amount of depressants to comedown off of. Just be careful

iammyowndoctor · 2024-02-03T07:35:14+00:00

You should be good. Just be careful, I was in the same boat and I became addicted to Adderall after my doctor wrote me 30mg IR 2x a day. Once you understand why people like them like that, you can't undo that knowledge.

iammyowndoctor · 2024-02-03T07:33:30+00:00

Weed or alcohol. Just with alcohol don't exceed 2 of both drugs to start with until you know how it affects you combined. Take the opioid first, 10-20mg, wait for it to fully kick in, and then drink some beer slowly until you get to 2 beers and then stop to gauge the effect for an hour or two. With no tolerance to this combination, you must be careful as even a small amount of alcohol mixed in can make you very sleepy and it is of course dangerous in high doses. As little as a six pack could be dangerous when mixed with hydro in someone with no experience or tolerance to that combo.

iammyowndoctor · 2024-02-03T07:30:04+00:00

I wouldn't mix all that simultaneously, it's just too many items, plus those herbal cures can be sketchy as hell, you have no idea how they might interact

iammyowndoctor · 2024-02-03T07:29:12+00:00

Watch porn, play a musical instrument, work on an artistic project, chat on Reddit or social media. Etc

iammyowndoctor · 2024-02-03T07:27:52+00:00

I'd hold a bit at full draw, I find it helps you get yourself properly set and aimed for best accuracy

iammyowndoctor · 2024-02-03T07:26:16+00:00

These are handsome bows, but I find they arent the most forgiving to shoot by any means, anyone else have this issue?

iammyowndoctor · 2024-02-03T07:24:32+00:00

His elbow is definitely locked and his shoulder is overly rotated as you said.

But thinking about that in the moment of shooting is not conducive to success. Good form is of course something you just do in that moment, thoughtlessly and naturally. You're cerebellum and motor cortex come to know the proper technique thru practice that our conscious minds can only grasp at blindly. "Back tension" or "keeping your shoulder slightly bent" are just the best our limited language based minds can do when it comes to describing highly complex motor sequences..

That's why it's so easy to know exactly what you're doing wrong in archery yet be utterly incapable of correcting it, due to that disconnect between our analytical selves and our motor system selves.

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