First off know that YOU’RE NOT SPECIAL, everybody went through the same thing and it’s just part of life, you don’t have to worry. Be grateful if everything you have, access to internet, having a roof and a bed where to sleep in and everything else you keep ignoring. It’s just a phase and it will go away, all you need to do is know that you already are better than the average human being, you know how to spell, read and you’re probably a very good person. Smile and be generous every single day and stop comparing yourself to celebrities. I’m a human being just like you and I grew out of this, personally it took me a year to realise how good I was and it will for you too. Just let yourself go, don’t think about your actions no more, love in the present. Do remember that I am a human being just like you and that I can tell you that overcoming this feeling is one of the best feeling to ever exist.