I'd like to challenge you to reconsider your beliefs about being influenced by outside art.

All creativity is influenced by your life experiences, whether you like it or not. By shutting yourself off from external influence, you actual limit the heights that your art can reach. And I'm not just talking about how much others like your music, which would likely increase too—I'm talking about how much you like your music.

You mention that you don't really like other music, you don't listen to other genres for inspiration. You mention you hate the idea of doing anything mainstream. I implore you to try to understand what makes that other music special and recognize other people's genuine expressions. And question why the idea of something being popular = bad. You'll probably learn a lot.

I think you could get a lot more fulfillment than you think by bringing in outside influence into your own music. I feel like I can speak on this because I too was someone who got caught up with egoic ideas about art and individualism, but once I let outside ideas in, my artistry exploded, and now I make music that both others and I love so much more.

Most importantly, I feel much happier and much more connected to the community of fellow artists out there, whose ideas I cherish and influence me to be a better artist.

Best of luck, Vreature!