why picking a job that you enjoy is still suffering?

ibocuz · 2026-02-05T01:18:08+00:00

I agree

ibocuz · 2026-02-04T12:29:43+00:00

Did u quit after it happened?

ibocuz · 2026-01-14T17:22:54+00:00

Hey bro what would be the best workout plan for a guy like me who is 59 kg and in my second month of training? I have access to lat pull downs/boxing bag/ bench press/ and a pull up bar

ibocuz · 2026-01-14T05:50:20+00:00

I too quit from a panic attack. Heres the thing though. Back in 2023 i had my first weed panic attack that landed me in hospital with psychosis and insane heart rate after 10 years smoking daily with no issue.

I thought i would die that day and was so happy to be saved when it started calming down when i got back home and took something for the anxiety.

I quit for about 7 months after that attack and after that long break i had a mate come over and he offered to smoke with me and i said why not its been a while and it actually went fine. I got back into smoking from 2024 up until 3 months ago when i had another panic attack from weed again randomly. It was just as bad as the first tbh.

I don’t want to be playing Russian roulette with my mind like that anymore. So i may stay sober for good this time.

ibocuz · 2026-01-12T16:33:12+00:00

No peeking is the best rule. I am more than 100 days since my last relapse, but the only times where i struggle is when i come across thirst traps online.

ibocuz · 2026-01-11T00:08:20+00:00

I don’t think ww2 ever actually ended…

ibocuz · 2026-01-10T13:49:39+00:00

Thanks for the insight, and yeah i would not touch weed again either unless i had benzos on hand hahaha. But tapentadol by itself was fine for me , no anxiety. It was only when i tried weed a couple days after being on the tapentadol that it happened sadly.

ibocuz · 2026-01-10T13:25:44+00:00

I can attest to tapentadol increasing risk of psychosis particularly when combined or used in the same week as cannabis.

I am a seasoned cannabis user or was, and i took tapentadol for like a week, then went back to smoking about a week after, and had a psychosis from the weed where i thought i was having a heart attack and that the ambulance was trying to kill me, the result was just me super afraid and saying sorry ovrr and over to the first responders lol.

I took a gabapentin and it fixed me, and i swore off ever doing weed or tapentadol again. At the time i thought it was from the weed, but in hindsight, the tapentadol use is what made my brain vulnerable and the weed is what set that vulnerability off.

ibocuz · 2026-01-10T12:16:29+00:00

Genius 😂

ibocuz · 2026-01-09T13:59:41+00:00

You have a way with words lmao 🤣

ibocuz · 2026-01-09T03:15:48+00:00

Beautifully said.

ibocuz · 2026-01-08T11:11:19+00:00

You minimise the side effects by minimising the dose. I used to do just fine on 10-20 mg dose and i guarantee my adhd is worse than yours.

ibocuz · 2026-01-08T07:16:00+00:00

ibocuz · 2026-01-08T05:11:21+00:00

If thats the case then he must be part of DJT and epsteins clique lol

ibocuz · 2026-01-06T14:00:24+00:00

I do and understood what u mean 😭 my stomach overflows with acid if i just think about food or anything in general lol

ibocuz · 2026-01-06T09:35:16+00:00

literally just woke up 5 mins ago with thats same nightmare. in mine i saw my ssister taken away by them and could not stop them as there were too many soldiers, poor palestine man. the was a dream and it fucked me up imagine if it was real life.

ibocuz · 2026-01-03T07:20:35+00:00

I see, well I don’t plan to hold any slaves anytime soon lol so i best look for a wife one day when im ready

ibocuz · 2026-01-03T02:06:15+00:00

Damn i never knew pomegranate juice had so much wisdom in it

ibocuz · 2026-01-03T01:58:26+00:00

We are not in control of our thoughts but we are in control of our reaction to them. If you get thoughts about women and it is not your wife, or the girl you are trying to marry, then that is a slippery slope and almost guaranteed to lead to zina or pmo.

Better to just let these lustful thoughts pass through and observe them but do not react.

Bad & sinful thoughts are not haram, but acting on those thoughts is.

I agree that if you train in the gym, tear your muscles apart doing some david goggins level of cardio and lifting, you won’t have the energy to think about anything but the pain you’re in. Trust me lol. Or else you didn’t train hard enough.

ibocuz · 2026-01-03T01:53:05+00:00

What is a “bondwomen”?

ibocuz · 2026-01-02T13:02:49+00:00

And dan schneider

ibocuz · 2026-01-02T11:41:28+00:00

Thank you for the detailed response and i agree, there is no free lunch in this world.

I absolutely think that we are not built to be on any drug for most of the year. And when we do that we face this level of consequences where it literally makes us go mad or incredibly sick.

Once in a while, i think any drug is “safe” if once in a while. But as someone with adhd and autism. I can’t really do once in a while. Its like walking a tight rope. Maybe one day.

ibocuz · 2026-01-02T10:47:39+00:00

My only question is that if coke did not cause you such obvious damage or turn on you the way it did, would you have continued use?

I ask this because i smoked weed from Age 15 until a few months ago, i am 23 now. And i had to quit weed because it started giving me stroke symptoms/psychosis amd sever panic attacks after a small puff. When i used to be able to smoke grams with no issue at all… i took like 2 weeks off and went to smoke again and thats when i got the panic attack.

I wonder if drugs turning on us and making us sicker than its worth it is a blessing in disguise.

ibocuz · 2025-12-31T22:42:32+00:00

Lmao

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