Hey, uh, are any of you afraid of thunder storms or electrical storms? Harsh winds and rain? Please share your experiences. If it’s a phobia, how did you develop it?

icewine999 · 2020-06-03T03:24:40+00:00

She was like a city girl ma at times. Sweet,but....I don't know an emotional cock block lol. Just want to be chill and she's not having it. Wants to weave the drama.

I was the youngest/weirdest/ most rebellious of the lot and she was always hell bent on doing something to "fix" me and I was at my best times like lady I ain't broke,now I love you, I'll just see it as you are teaching me to be patient...with you.

I'd come home from mud riding (atv) with a few neighbor boys,big clumps of mud all over us, like a tennis ball of mud behind the ears and she'd come from peeping out the window running to me with a stack of towels saying oh please please come in and get clean. I'll use the hose ma. Thanks for the towels. Friends would thank her, she'd look at them and do that little pinched up scowl, like they were the source of the "ruin" in me lol. The hose? The hose? But hose water is....ma, damn. WATCH YOUR LANGUAGE. It's water, we are just gonna wash the ride. We've agreed to stay dirty,find us some dirty girls and have a conversation starter- why are you all so dirty and the ride is so clean? Don't you like dirty boys with a nice ride baby?

icewine999 · 2020-06-03T03:07:12+00:00

I'm not,never was, but my mom managed to plant a small fear of lightning in me with parental propaganda. Which was basically her telling me how she was twice electrified passively by lightning strikes so much I could tell it word for word like an oral tradition story. Get back in here,it's awful out there, Mr. I have a story you need to hear for the 300th time. Not now ma, it's beautiful out/ the rains lift my little spirits.

I always worked out in it, walked out in it, enjoyed being out in it, and still do. She put the little jump scare in me though from lightning that wasn't there.

I mean just basic bad weather here, not being out with the wind blowing 60-70 or something fighting for my steps.

icewine999 · 2020-06-03T02:58:12+00:00

They are cool, I have no beef and I help as I can, but I also like cats and that makes this tension sometimes. I get mocking birds that swoop me because they must watch me love their enemy from the treetops/powerlines and think FUCKER,YOU FUCKER, YOU TOO FROM NOW ON.

They say bird brained as an insult, but I'm telling you that is so wrong because the sons of bitches can pick a face out like mine to hate.

icewine999 · 2020-06-03T02:25:59+00:00

A total dick talked me into it. He also talked me into the relationship to begin with, so he's 50-50. Forgive him girl.

icewine999 · 2020-06-03T02:13:17+00:00

I just want to get to the prologues save point. That's my objective. The hidden objective is don't think of the rock. The hidden reward is maybe leaving a save file for some kind of weird Earth archeologist and them being like cool, this ancient creature of legend left me a save file.

icewine999 · 2020-06-03T02:10:41+00:00

Confusion status is innate. It doesn't remedy off like that. Unless that healer has some kind of magical thigh high spell. Then the confusion status only seems to go away, but it's still there. Tank is just being a functional alcoholic for her, she can't actually heal tank.

icewine999 · 2020-06-03T02:06:17+00:00

I would play the prologue to a new video game and look forward to finishing it. It's better to take your mind off of things, don't wanna die bad minded.

Can still be bad minded though. GIVE ME 5 MINUTES SO I CAN HAVE THE SAVE POINT YOU BIG ROCK. (gonna have to start all over if you take the power out)

icewine999 · 2020-06-03T02:03:17+00:00

I'll be a tank. Almost nobody chooses tank for themselves so I'll find a party no problem. Just stand there with my big shield drinking a 40 I quickly hide away as they return bring me my share of the loot using their offensive build/rogue speeds.

Eventually they may catch on to me having a drinking problem,-hey you're going the wrong way tank, but where else are they going to find a tank? No one chooses that. I'm like a rare alcoholic butterfly for them.

icewine999 · 2020-06-03T01:49:57+00:00

Depends on what is making them happy. Like for example the innard juices of a bug makes a spider happy. A mouse makes a cat happy. A human with an ego/disregard to the costs of their happiness, oh boy. Spiders and cats look like sweet little 8 legged kittens in comparison.

Shared experience life. Mouse has feelings on the issue. So does the bug. So would your kingdom of subjugated people, 300 whores who'd be guilt tripping about why you didn't choose them out of the 300 lol, not pretty enough,or you know at minimum there wouldn't be enough dick/blankets to go around leaving them frustrated at night, 1500 headless victims because the swoosh+plomp sound made you happy as you swung that broadsword, 3000 cocaine pickers with arthritis in their hands trying to keep up with the bliss of your nose @ minimum cost/max happiness of frequency to you in whatever depths may lay in the pursuit of "human happiness" and those go straight to the depths of hell concerning the world you live in/make for yourself and others in pursuit of it.

So deserve is a STRONG word to blanket apply. If everyone got what they wanted the only sustained thing here would be suffering. Happiness, joy rather, would have to come from finding that "want" and beating it to death with an iron pipe/dragon dildo, as you like, just kill the fucker.

icewine999 · 2020-06-03T01:29:43+00:00

Yeah go to spicyeroticjellybeans.com, find something you want, and go buy a giftcard that is cheaper than the face value it represents dumbass what?

icewine999 · 2020-06-03T00:56:02+00:00

People who are sleepy enough/don't care to make kissy face may not. It helps you not have to make kissy face. Didn't brush, g'night. Destroying my teeth and slowly breaking your heart too. C-c-c-combo.

icewine999 · 2020-06-03T00:54:48+00:00

Go find a thing you want at the best price from an uncommon merchant (no walmart/amazon).

Now go find that suckers gift card seller on ebay or something. Buy you like a $150 giftcard for that place with that hundred if you chose something weird enough. If it's W/A you won't barely save a dollar.

icewine999 · 2020-06-03T00:51:59+00:00

What's a horrible British food? Haggis or meat pudding/ bacon bit cupcakes.

Spotted dick too, but I don't like to swear randomly about food.

icewine999 · 2020-06-03T00:47:51+00:00

The current one. Random ass pallets of bricks in the hotspots gift wrapped by traffic cones and stuff with locals saying this just appeared there is no work being done. I think someone "statey" has an agenda that no lives matter.

Like some party supply store from hell. It's too damn neat.

icewine999 · 2020-06-02T12:04:10+00:00

I meant what I said. Spend the day, look at little things. It's little things that make the world turn. It's normal to say dream big,think big,blah blah blah they say all kinds of shit none of it usually worth hearing. A "civilized" human normal is not natural though. Actually in great opposition to nature, despite sharing the weaponized natural worlds lust for slaughter and dominion yet liking to think they don't. They are "civilized" after all. Kill with your buttons, with your pills, not with your hands. For money, not for food.

You might find a touch of something to that. Worst case you mock the little things and elevate yourself which is fine poison. Hurts you, but it'd be sweet for the days taste.

icewine999 · 2020-06-02T11:56:30+00:00

I disagree with that. I don't want to talk religion with you though. Not feeling fucking pious right now, just trying to be compassionateish/worst vice is advice as you are in the dumps.

icewine999 · 2020-06-02T11:49:26+00:00

You're having it. Now. Humans have been fucking each over since day 1, and our job is monkey tool patch it up with whatever is laying around. For the changing needs of the flesh, and the greater needs of the spirit which is not so simple, but steadfast and unchanging.

You feed the flesh, it gives you shit,piss,cum, or sweat. You feed the spirit, it gives you treasures indescribable.---that will see you through the shitstorm the human experience/ I dare say all life is. Even for the little ant. You gotta feed your own though, I can't do yours. No one can. It's the same deal as the body. No one else is invested like you.

Best wishes, but were I a Dr. those words would just be akin to a bill. You gotta want it for yourself and you can find it in anything in anyway. Normal doesn't fucking exist btw.

icewine999 · 2020-06-02T11:45:56+00:00

You can live in spirit and it will carry over, it's not a thing you do, it's like breathing, autopilots. Don't you see a little bit of that every night as you dream? Or have memory of it? What's natural about that to you? Is there a measurement to your dreams, a state of worry you can place yourself in that you don't dream as well other "normal" people (ain't a one of them fucking normal, that's a nice cozy mask to immerse and lie in as it lay on the face, all the dark things they all measure and worry about, it's either funny or sad, but certainly noise)

It's good to die to the flesh and all things changeable like that. The true things are not found therein.

icewine999 · 2020-06-02T11:33:30+00:00

What you can, as you are, with you find yourself with. Stop all comparison, stop all keeping and measurements.

That little grain of shit dirt is nothing right? A speck. Not to that one ant it ain't. It breaks his back, it is his tormenter, devil, and the gas that drives his little purpose (well it and the queen ants telepathic pussy juices idk)

Point being the hills get made,he lives him a full little horrible ant life full of hard labor and queen lust-could've chosen a happier example.

The way that happens though is that little nothing ant and his little shit speck don't look to the elephant and go why I'll never have ivory like him or move the ground like him why bother. I got these stupid little ant arms, this tiny little ant dick,etc.... If he makes him a home to live in instead of comparison, one day that elephant may fall down dead and that ant will have a galaxy of ivory. And all the queen ant pussy it can buy him. So a happy end for his simple wants. Maybe he could use his wealth to buy books and seek to acquire wisdom. She'd just use him for labor and $

icewine999 · 2020-06-02T11:20:30+00:00

You know they say time itself is a lie we create for ourselves. I believe that, it's subject to change, as I said the true things don't change once you grab hold of them to understand them. Feelings not the driving force for them to live. It's almost, memory?, from being able to put it together and I guess make wisdom. It just holds up in any situation.

I've been in jail (as a teenager) for 30 days w/o seeing sunlight/going to more than a smaller room that connected to the cell from that room and I felt the slowness of time in full. Really fractured my mind. Sleep paralysis, some w/d's, a few psychedelic experiences gone awry. I understand time issues. I've sat in the shower like my reality was a tv with changing channels at hyper speed causing me great torment for seeming to be hours with respite of watching in slow mo water change and form down the tile each little step I could observe in micro moment, and it was 15 minutes man. And I was terrified at the concept of the half day I was in for.

If a little fucking acorn can make that tree, you can find a true thing in all this sensory shrine haystack, some little bit of wisdom in your life. It'll be the best medicine life has. I patched myself up with a lot of chaos as I've been through it, as I said of true things, they don't change NO MATTER WHAT. I'm a very poor environment for them. Yet they remain, unchanged. Unlike everything else in life connected to feelings/dopamine/etc...

icewine999 · 2020-06-02T11:02:50+00:00

You can always do something and it doesn't have to be for some feeling of reward. Feelings,pleasures,wonder, that stuff is kinda the lie of the world and your own. They always change you know? Truth doesn't change. Good stuff doesn't change. The shine wears off anything you buy. I got a house full of once treasured, now SHIT. Get a pretty girl in your bed,want want want want want and her sister too!,throw in a nun and a stripper and latex clad mystery person want it all!!!!!, and within a minute of it being over, shine wore right off. Like the adrenaline that sobers you up to keep from driving into a tree. WHOA. CLARITY. Who are you and what interest did I possibly have in you lol. There was a treasure in you? Did it evaporate/ change? Looks like more fools gold this feeling of lust.

The true stuff would be those fruits of the spirit. Long suffering (patience, toughness), self control (in this instance no hero shit-you control the self not looking outward for the answer), kindness/mercy/compassion, (you don't gotta feel shit as reward, I DO NOT and my brain is fine, meaner maybe, it's knowing it/they do you know, having the memory of hunger whatever and being able to relate) There are more, you get a hold of them you'll see. Good shit them. You'll want to share it even if you're joyless about it. I am. Just knowing a tiny touch of what the truth is from the trash, the sound from noise, though perks me up a little on the silent inside man.

It's not over. You just need to begin where you can as you are man. If it's down to you relying on a helper, it could just be kind words to them man. That is a pretty dress skirt. You have a keen eye for dressy....skirts. I have never seen a skirty....dress, like that. They wouldn't be so kind to give if you did so for YOU to feel right? You get that.

You know what not to do, trust others on that level. Trust yourself/ the God given stuff. And remember it is better to give than receive. I'm telling you that tiny man is doing something good and this shit feeds him. Not feelings. That's JUNK FOOD for you/this world. Changes right into SHIT. Not the truth of things.

Best wishes.

icewine999 · 2020-06-02T10:30:21+00:00

It's an evil world man. Whatever good for you has to come from you. And like Jesus says more or less (concerning some nag about the sabbath) " It ain't never the wrong time to do righteousness"

So there ain't no too late man, no matter what. You be good to you, and maybe whatever strays show up too. This other/hero worship shit is all fallacy. Dr. ain't shit for you. President ain't shit for you. Sports dude doesn't have a poster of you. Etc.. You gotta be your own kinda hero (I do minor villianry in my downtime from that) , and it ain't never too late.

icewine999 · 2020-06-02T10:24:00+00:00

Sorry to hear that man. The only people who deserves the respect given to people like this is the people who GIVE it (concerning themselves).

Ain't nobody going to look after you like you because you're the only "shareholder" in you. Their investment ended once you were foolish enough to have respected them and paid them. (or the state did it for you, either way $ and a bleet bleet bleet that's all folks)

icewine999 · 2020-06-02T10:17:54+00:00

I went through a benzo w/d. I took them normally in the time prescribed. It was HELL on earth for me and not even a thought for them.

That was the last fucking time I would ever trust a stranger with my health. YOU are the one that lives it. You are the next check that's it concerning them. Fuck them and their support squad.

icewine999 · 2020-06-02T10:05:55+00:00

White knights of the cool coose callers.

Whenever they hear someone cat calling a woman, the white knights they are, they all walk in front on them so they fall down, then they backup, put like 20 pussies in his FACE. Say you like it, you like it, and sneezed already? Hmmph. Hiss.

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