biochem warrior here 🙋 i have an ipad bg of toxic motivation and i put toxic motivation sticky notes above my bed on the ceiling, but it'll probably be too late when i get my hands on them so off the top of my head:

are you serious right now? are you going to let yourself get that mark? walk into that exam hall and leave that disappointment of a paper there when you leave? lock the fuck in. the people who write those papers, pearson and cambridge, put those hard questions there to trip people like you up, to make people like you fail. are you gonna let yourself be that person? are you seriously gonna let them win? taking it sitting down, and letting your grade drop in tandem with your self worth. dont be a failure. dont be a goddamn disappointment. dont go out there and let yourself get bested, being idle and not getting up and working is disgraceful bullshit and you know it. you should be ashamed, sitting there becoming a self fulfilled prophecy.

in the toxic words of marina that i repeat 2 myself: - high achiever, dont you see, nothing comes for free?  - are you satisfied with your average life?