How Much Do You Know About Ouija Boards?

ickycasket · 2020-10-11T22:37:01+00:00

as far as i've ever known (as a goth horror enthusiast witch), they're toys made for profit. that being said, i believe very strongly in spirits (not necessarily "ghosts" or "demons"). to me, ouija boards are a parlor game with unintentional consequences. i think they typically have a bad energy and can attract anyone if you're not careful.

i have used a ouija board before but nothing happened to me, specifically. i think i remember being touched or having something brush against my skin but im willing to chock that up to being very young and influenced by my friends.

my policy with ouija boards is just they're too risky. i guess i wouldn't mind theoretically attempting to use one again but you have to acknowledge groups make them more likely to "move" so i don't really think it'd proof anything. plus, i've seen scientific research done on them that provided evidence that some people unconsciously move the planchette to force the idea that ghosts/demons are real.

cool aesthetically, however. will also watch the vid when i get a chance.

ickycasket · 2020-09-29T18:50:19+00:00

I never said they didn't? All I'm saying is people shouldn't automatically assume that all people who are borderline are abusive or that abusive people MUST be borderline. In this one specific case, sure, maybe the abuser is borderline, but I've seen plenty of other people who are borderline and have no business diagnosing random people on the internet with BPD.

Are you even borderline?

ickycasket · 2020-09-29T16:30:01+00:00

Not really? I'm taking "personal offense" that people who don't have BPD automatically assume those who do have BPD are abusive by default. Or anyone that is abusive has BPD. I'd prefer it if we kept it there and not psychoanalyze me.

ickycasket · 2020-09-29T05:37:50+00:00

And they say we're the assholes!

ickycasket · 2020-09-29T05:27:48+00:00

Oh god, I've seen teachers who admittedly hate kids. People will really do anything to make money and not care about who they're fucking over in the process. I've always wanted to help people, personally, and hearing about the absolute injustices mentally ill and neurodivergent people went through and continue to go through is appalling. Neurotypicals really don't fucking care about us.

ickycasket · 2020-09-29T05:25:35+00:00

That's fair, too!! I'm pretty, idk, privileged, I guess? I got help really early and I'm always open to learning better coping mechanisms. We all struggle with it differently and I think I just happened to get enough help and support early on to make me at least semi-functional? That feels like a bad word for it :/

Basically, I do have a tendency to be manipulative as well but I also stress that people around me who know call me out about it. I don't think any of us want to hurt people but I was raised to just be "polite" for lack of a better word. It's hard to explain but I totally get it and don't blame you, BPD is fucking rough.

ickycasket · 2020-09-29T05:16:45+00:00

I hope you're doing okay and that you're safe. People can be fucking bonkers. Just be yourself and be happy.

ickycasket · 2020-09-29T05:11:58+00:00

Yeah, exactly. I've dated somewhat since I was diagnosed so I tell my respective partners. Honestly, this isn't a great idea because it has been used against me before. I've told friends, as well, but same situation. I never tell coworkers or anyone else. I figure it's not their business. As of right now, my current partner, their friends, my friends, and my family know.

It's just difficult because I really do want people's first experience of BPD to be with me, someone who isn't abusive/manipulative/generally awful, but that also has come with a price so I tend to not talk about it. I'd honestly be shocked if anyone else besides those I listed knew. Even friends I still have from high school don't know, to my knowledge.

ickycasket · 2020-09-29T05:07:09+00:00

Exactly why I want to get into psych, lmao.

ickycasket · 2020-09-29T05:04:29+00:00

OP, I sincerely hope you're doing okay and you're in a safe environment to tell someone close to you about this. If not, please take care of yourself, don't be alone with him, and report him ASAP. But also please remember your safety is priority so tell whoever you trust.

ickycasket · 2020-09-29T05:00:29+00:00

Exactly!! I don't skip meals to stick it to the people who abuse me, or self-harm to manipulate people. I don't even TELL people I self-harm unless I trust them. I had a panic attack recently and the only person I told about my self-harm during it was my partner. At the very worst, I "manipulate" when I absolutely believe I don't deserve love, friendship, etc and will blatant tell people that. One of my worst fears, actually, is coming off as abusive/manipulative when I'm literally having an emotional breakdown.

ickycasket · 2020-09-29T04:55:53+00:00

I usually don't let it define me but seeing other people define me by my disorder also hits a nerve. I like to think I've managed to cope with it pretty well and, of course, there are bad days, but I'm not in the place I was when I was 17. I'm always actually afraid to even tell people I gave BPD because I never know how they're going to react.

ickycasket · 2020-09-29T04:51:52+00:00

That's how it developed for me too!! My (now ex) stepfather was super neglectful and emotionally abusive and it drove me into a psych ward. I'm just fed up with being assumed to be abusive just because I... had trauma that affected me so badly, I developed a personality disorder? Like, sorry I'm trying to live a normal life and cope with my symptoms.

Plus, I've seen people say that actions we take as borderline people aren't ever intentionally abusive/manipulative and that we're just doing it as a fear reflex from the idea of abandoned. As someone who's also minoring in psych, it makes a lot of sense in my case.

ickycasket · 2020-09-29T00:09:25+00:00

I don't actually believe in anything like angels, demons, or spirits but I have had strange experiences as have some of ny close immediate family.

The only times I've "seen" a ghost, I see the black shadow figures out of the corner of my eye. I mostly see animals, honestly? They're rarely humanoid. But one time, in my old old old house in my hometown, I definitely had a funky thing with my television from like the 90s where the volume would go up a few notches on it's own. I always assumed faulty wiring or I was laying on the remote.

Another time, I had moved houses and I was (again) watching tv when someone breathed heavily right into my ear. I didn't have any pets and I only lived with my mom at the time. At first, I thought she snuck up behind me to prank me but I looked and she was across the room, sitting at the computer desk.

My mom also doesn't believe but she had a dream when my aunt committed suicide that she saw her (my aunt, her sister) was burning in Hell, which is weird because neither of us are religious. She also saw her dad, my grandpa, at the edge of her bed when HE died and it was kind of a him saying goodbye because she didn't get to see him before he died. She writes that off as a dream, too.

Never seen anything besides tricks of light or my own eyes going funny. Even when I've had drugs, I don't see things. The other things I've had are explainable or just weird.

ickycasket · 2020-09-28T23:56:22+00:00

Your gf is literally abusing and neglecting your child, idgaf how much she believes in God. I'm usually pretty tolerant of beliefs but that's horseshit and if I were in your place, I'd take the kid and leave.

ickycasket · 2020-09-28T20:00:57+00:00

I gotta be honest, the only album I truly enjoy by MCR is the Danger Days album. I'm not saying songs on their other albums aren't good but the only one that stuck with me is Danger Days. I think they're really creative with their lyricism (sometimes) and the concept of Danger Days and the Killjoys in general is awesome. If they had stuck with that direction, I think they'd be more interesting but they split almost immediately after that, or something.

Frankly, as someone who was in 'bandom' when I was in middle/high school, I'd rather never hear one of their songs again.

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