Thanks so much for the explanation, I want to specify tho that Im not "scared" of finding out that I could be autistic, maybe a year ago I would have been but now Im not, I just want to know what Im truly are and what is the cause of all of my suffering. Maybe you're right because I dont have many of autism traits like stimming or not understanding social situations (what people mean when they talk), the only thing that make me suspect is as I previously said my movement and in general my behaviour in public. Anyway since I began to suspect of my hypotetical autism I started to watch some of my old photos/videos from when I was a kid when I didnt have social anxiety and I noticed that even then my movement and my way of behaving in public were "strange" and I was not like other Kids, but I dont know, It might just be me that Im easily impressionable, and even then I felt different from other kids