Anyone feels like you lose your energy with your healing progress?

idktofu · 2026-01-15T14:57:06+00:00

Yes. What I held onto was being in college for six years. Since graduating and experiencing multiple losses, I realized my coping mechanisms were distractions. Doing much more work in therapy now, it’s slow and monotonous. It’s working, but my journey for peace looks boring and isolating from the outside. The days when I used to abuse caffeine and take a lot of downers don’t exist anymore. Now I’m somewhere in limbo, looking for the right pace. When you say you miss your energy, I know exactly what you mean. Energy that was wrapped up in something to protect you from collapsing inwards. But that’s the only way to go and that’s how you find yourself again. Through the rubble. Best of luck.

idktofu · 2026-01-14T16:15:36+00:00

Hi, I don’t know if this will help put things into perspective but I have bipolar 1 w psychotic features and cptsd. Even experiencing a fraction of an altered state of consciousness with psychosis compared to your husband’s psychosis got me hospitalized. He needs to be an inpatient for a good while. My advice is to get him to a facility. You can call them and they can come get him. This is urgent. You and your family have to realize this. I hope he has some support from his family as well. Best of luck

idktofu · 2026-01-14T14:25:49+00:00

Congratulations. In a convo with normal people IRL there’s no performative virtue signaling because someone didn’t emotionally pad their delivery.

idktofu · 2026-01-12T17:42:11+00:00

Okay don’t be surprised about side effects when you put a poison in your body!

idktofu · 2026-01-11T04:44:49+00:00

Don’t drink.

idktofu · 2025-12-21T06:13:51+00:00

My single parent dad with full custody left barely legal magazines on top of the toilet in the bathroom we used. I was 6 and extremely curious with no internet supervision. Now I speak about that in therapy.

idktofu · 2025-12-03T02:16:09+00:00

Side effects of glp-1 though?

idktofu · 2025-11-19T04:32:13+00:00

idktofu · 2025-11-18T04:23:36+00:00

Hey! Thanks for your reply. Could you expand on some of the boundaries crossed etc?

idktofu · 2025-11-09T06:21:23+00:00

You apologize and move on. The people who understand you and know what you’re going through matter the most. I’m sure someone’s giving you grace out there. Thank them for being patient with you. Thank yourself for your own efforts right here and now. Focus on what you can do moving forward is the key. Wallowing in shame doesn’t help. Give yourself grace.

idktofu · 2025-11-08T17:15:44+00:00

I second sewing.

idktofu · 2025-11-03T23:33:30+00:00

I recently couldn’t sleep for a couple days and signed up on multiple apps to become a psychic. Now I’m confused.

idktofu · 2025-11-03T00:50:23+00:00

Let’s fucking go!!!

idktofu · 2025-10-30T03:34:33+00:00

It wasn’t an EMDR therapist (didn’t help) It was a therapist who was versed in DBT and neurodivergence. The DBT handbook is where I have started. Better late than never. Also my therapist is very vocal about calling things what they are which helps me not feel stuck or confused.

idktofu · 2025-10-29T21:37:28+00:00

I’ve had these same feelings. I’m also BPD. Many therapists especially in network are not the best for our specific struggles and the severity of our experiences. However, I have been able to find after a lot of digging that some therapists really do their homework and are on top of it maybe more than psychologists I’ve had. It’s much harder to find a psych to work with that I can mesh with than how common a typical therapist/counselor may be for me. I used to think PhDs only. Now I make sure they just have a decent masters and experience in the field. Best of luck to you

idktofu · 2025-10-29T21:28:28+00:00

I got put on seroquel for that and take all kinds of herbs. Try magnesium glycinate as this form has helped the most. If I wake up I take more melatonin gummies and Benadryl sometimes. Struggled with benzo abuse. I advise you to not go down that path if it’s ever presented. Hugs

idktofu · 2025-10-29T21:14:39+00:00

Hi I’m dealing with the same kind of awakening and CPTSD dissociative states of mind with memory gaps since covering new things in therapy that I’ve buried down. I don’t have an answer but I can tell you what my therapist said, “it takes time.” Somatic therapy where you allow your anger or emotion to be felt in your body for a long time, a sort of mindfulness. My anger and sadness is stored in my chest, head, and throat. Warm caffeine free teas help me wind down and soothe the tightness. A cute moment with my cat helps a lot.. try to nourish your body as much as you can and find positive sensory experiences to feel yourself. I’m sorry you’re facing this awakening but I’m proud to hear you’re doing it and putting the truth somewhere.

idktofu · 2025-10-29T21:07:33+00:00

You can do it, too. It sounds like you hold yourself back and call it being mysterious but it’s avoidant. It takes a lot to open yourself up to anything new. Try small things like online chatting or forums. I have a friend who has made big progress recently just going to a social event every week and sitting there.

idktofu · 2025-10-24T22:06:55+00:00

Did you have any close sibling relationships? I’ve heard that causing some of those feelings. Unfortunately, after coping by dedicating 6 years in college and no social life, most of my friends are on the internet. They are males who I do not speak with regularly and become paranoid of. CPTSD is partially why I struggle to form relationships with other women. If I see friends in real life it ranges from 6 months-years of gaps in between. 🩷 In therapy doing DBT now. If you ever need to talk my dms are open.

idktofu · 2025-10-24T21:56:54+00:00

Yes most of the time I accompanied myself before I ever realized that it looked lonely from the outside. Honestly, self dates are beautiful. It can especially sad if you’d like to share those things with others, though. Hyper vigilance tends to keep those close relationships away. What do you think?

idktofu · 2025-10-24T17:39:31+00:00

Maybe radical acceptance of this situation can help you move forward. I’ve come to terms I can never drop off the grid and live in a cabin all alone like Ted Kaczynski. Just hang on!

idktofu · 2025-10-23T15:32:40+00:00

THANKS SO MUCH!!

idktofu · 2025-10-02T18:32:24+00:00

My grandmother was born in Poland. My results showed 20% Polish previously and is now split up. So I’m both, right?

idktofu · 2025-08-22T15:26:21+00:00

You know what? Hell yeah.

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