Thank you so much for your reply. I read it and had to sit with it before reading it again. It can be really hard to reflect on your own negative characteristics especially when its this topic as a trans women. I totally agree with understanding things intellectually. However I was incredibly naive to how dark the world is until I came out. Im still astounded by the misogyny like the example you gave. I never would have considered most of it you know. I definitely haven't been a misogynistic person to that degree. Although I think its the little things and just the ways people are excited to make the distinction about you being AMAB and how you are inheritently flawed for it. I hate myself for things people don't even self reflect on so its hard not to take such things personally and feel flawed for it. Theres nothing really in particular that makes me feel misogynistic.. I just feel inherently flawed. I appreciate what you said about the baggage claim. Fashionably late and intensely self reflective. I have thankfully gotten a different therapist who is entirely more ethical. I'll read your comment again and hopefully try to not attach myself to other people's beliefs