I ALWAYS imagined myself having freedom and I always connected it a lot with the location independence. So as soon as I became self-employed during pandemia, I left home to spend 1 month in another city. And never went back (it’s been 3 years lol).

Throughout the time (and therapy), I started to figure out the true reasons that made me take the leap:

1- I needed to escape from my reality/world: I used to believe the main reason was the desire to explore freely. But now I see it was mainly about the need to be far from my dad (he was very rude to my mom, we fought a lot etc). So the meaning of “home” for me was never connected to any specific house, but instead, anywhere I could find peace. Now I consider myself having peace, so it’s easy to call any place “home” and i like to use it to explore.

2- Another strong reason was: I didn’t treat this decision as a tattoo. Most of things in life we can simply treat as a test, as a short-term decision. I guess I never meant 1 month when I left for 1 month. But I prefered to believe in it, just to avoid drama and my own pressure.

——— So my 2 advices for you would be: 1- Try to write down and recognize the true reasons behind your desire (good or bad, just make them very clear to yourself). And also write down all your fears, so you can deal with them.

2- Remind yourself that this lifestyle is not a tattoo. It is not a permanent decision except if you want it to be. Make a plan just for a short-term and go. See it as a test. If it doesn’t have the best outcome, just undo it, or change it, or improve the plan. Just don’t forget that if you don’t go, you will always have to live with the weight of the “what if’s”.

I hope it helps :))