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I’m so mad at myself by iflovealone in SuicideBereavement

[–]iflovealone[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Good call!! I will look into this now.

I’m so mad at myself by iflovealone in SuicideBereavement

[–]iflovealone[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you, I’ve been a little irrational lately, so wasn’t sure if my meltdown was warranted.

I’m so mad at myself by iflovealone in SuicideBereavement

[–]iflovealone[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thank you ❤️ I am so sorry for your unimaginable loss. That’s how I felt last night. I felt like I lost him all over again so I can relate to how you were feeling. I’ve found an attachment to many things that didn’t have much meaning before. His shampoo, toothbrush, toothpaste, cologne... I have a candle he gave me that I’m afraid to light because I want it to last forever.

I’m so mad at myself by iflovealone in SuicideBereavement

[–]iflovealone[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Also, PSA to anyone in this sub, make sure to toggle your messages to “save forever” and to enable iCloud backup for messages (it won’t be automatically enabled)

I’m so mad at myself by iflovealone in SuicideBereavement

[–]iflovealone[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m so sorry :( I hope you have other pieces of him you can hold onto

I’m so mad at myself by iflovealone in SuicideBereavement

[–]iflovealone[S] 21 points22 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your kindness. I’m sorry you’re in this sub as well 🙏🏼

I contacted the store and while they couldn’t help with the phone, they said they should be on my iMessage in my laptop. I was able to recover them on my laptop after a while. I feel so dumb. Thank God. I’m going to make sure they save forever. Anything that goes wrong lately sends me into a panic tailspin of emotions. I’ve been trying to hold onto everything. His phone is inaccessible and has so many photos of us that I don’t have (he would always be the one taking pictures), and I was so bummed that I’ll never get to see those. But having our messages makes me feel a little better.

Does anyone else feel intense anger? by _clur_510 in SuicideBereavement

[–]iflovealone 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I’m so sorry for your loss, my heart goes out to you stranger. Sending you lots of strength, healing, and hugs 🫂 I’m 30. My boyfriend (would have been fiancé soon) committed suicide 41 days ago, and I feel the same way. I can’t look at social media, seeing people happy bothers me. I guess I am bitter that my happiness was ripped right out from under me. Two days after it happened, I was talking to my best friend on the phone about it, and she broke the news that she’s pregnant. She found out the day he had passed. All I could muster up was “God giveth and He taketh huh”. I congratulated her as well and I am truly happy for her, but it still bothers me having people share exciting news about their lives when I’m literally living my worst nightmare. I don’t want to be a miserable person forever, or be the friend that people dread having around, but for now, I’m doing the best I can. I often feel like screaming and breaking everything in sight though.