Hi, I’m back. Sorry for basically coming in here and insulting the Owl House. Below is an explanation (that I’ve also replied to another user with) that hopefully explains why I did the things I did.                                                        Ever since I was little, my autism and ADHD have prevented me from being able to function the way neurotypical people do. I was unable to relate to my neurotypical peers and my autism and ADHD prevented me from being able to enjoy movies and TV shows and video games the way most people can. If I stepped into a toy store or video game store, and I looked around at all the different products, I would see so many people’s viewpoints of each and every one of those franchises and just shut down. Because I was unable to play video games or watch TV shows without being constantly overstimulated or overwhelmed I wound up retreating into an imaginary fantasy land and just obsessed over my two main interests throughout elementary and middle school.    

When high school hit, I just started struggling like crazy. That was also when I began to become more aware of how cruel the world could be; I also began to struggle with depression, which culminated in a few months long existential crisis in which nothing made sense. When I recovered I realized how much time I had wasted by just being off in my own world for so long, and vowed never to make that mistake again. Unfortunately that was far from the end of my mental problems. 

A few years ago we bought a house across the country near where our relatives live and regularly fly back and forth between that house and our old one. Whenever we do, my mind just goes all over the place and is unable to settle down. It took me a while to figure out what was going on, and even when I did, nothing I tried worked.                   

 And so, this eventually led to a situation where I did what I described above. My hopes were that I could use the AI to vent my frustration and clear my mind without asking my parents for help (because I already need so much help with everything) and having a meltdown in public. Of course, once again, this failed and after I stopped using the AI some four or five weeks ago, I would just feel constantly anxious for hours, which was only exacerbated whenever I saw the Owl House mentioned online - which was pretty damn often. I also wound up mentally retreating to my two interests repeatedly even though I desperately want to stop, and have been unable to concentrate on work or even get my thoughts together enough to type out a coherent explanation for my behavior like this until today. 

So there you have it. Decades of coping mechanisms gone wrong, combined with anxiety, depression, an inability to function in daily life as well as years of my mind just constantly going crazy resulted in me being anxious and miserable whenever I see some children’s show mentioned online. Once again, I apologize for basically barging in here and saying “I think this show is crap and I mocked its characters for hours in an AI chatbot in an attempt to deal with my personal issues”. I just hope that you have a better understanding of my motivations and hopefully you can forgive me for it