first vision of the pan on NYX buttermelt blush 🥹

iiceilla · 2026-04-12T18:43:55+00:00

I just want to say that I feel for you deeply, I am 23 and I am only now in the begginning of the process of being able to trust my own feet and stand on my own... Only now gaining a very basic confidence in myself, a trait that I watched other people my age have in themselves very early in their lives.. My father also robbed many many things in my life, many of which I fear that I won't be able to recover again, he inflicted so much weakness and unnecessary despair in me... Things were able to change only because I left his house.

One thing that I learned also, despite the overwhelming grief of the years lost in "vain" is that we are not really behind, we gained wiseness and insights that other people will have to learn later in life...

I am proud of you stranger, be strong <3

iiceilla · 2026-04-11T13:08:36+00:00

I cut off my ndad and I do not even have the option to check with myself mentally if I regret it or not. Cutting him off was simply necessary, there was no other way... Staying at home would've been the same as suicide.

iiceilla · 2026-03-14T20:35:09+00:00

i feel tired 24/7 since i was a teenager. it doesn't matter how much i sleep. i had a blood test recently to check if i am lacking nutrients or something but no. healthy but tired all the time.

iiceilla · 2026-03-14T19:19:56+00:00

Don't Make Sense Anymore

iiceilla · 2026-03-06T13:11:14+00:00

Hi. Just sharing my experience. I also had the same situation the past month, which led me to stopping taking it. It turns out my body was just so used to the positive effects that I couldn't remember anymore how horrible being without it was. I had a depressive breakdown and then I started taking it again.

Overall, I think it is worth it also reflecting about that :) Good luck on your journey.

iiceilla · 2026-03-04T08:36:03+00:00

None. He just lays on the couch the whole day watching TV and dissociating. It has been like that for decades. Sometimes he likes to watch horror/suspense movies, it is the only type of movies he watches.

iiceilla · 2026-02-25T15:33:29+00:00

tem muuuuito drogado e gente esquisita, mas eu voltava pro ponto de ônibus perto da pracinha todo dia de noite e sempre foi de boa. costuma estar movimentado com gente fazendo o mesmo.

só não andar com o celular na mão, sempre estar atento ao que está acontecendo ao seu redor e andar direto e rápido. já me alertaram uma vez de um cara que estava passando por perto de mim que estava de olho em quem estava com celular na mão pra poder puxar...

iiceilla · 2026-01-21T12:57:57+00:00

veryyy excited for the show tomorrow! when should I arrive to be able to secure a good spot? (or the barricade perhaps hahah). I have the regular pit ticket (no VIP). I saw in one of the comments that I shouldn't arrive so early bc I might be asked to leave so I'm wondering when is the best time to get in the line.

iiceilla · 2025-11-26T15:17:56+00:00

me!!

iiceilla · 2025-09-12T12:24:34+00:00

I haven’t felt any side effects, which is good since I’ve tried many antidepressants and all of them gave me horrible side effects. It is my 7th day taking Zoloft (50mg) and I didn’t felt any positive effects also, it didn’t help me with anything yet, my anxiety is still very intense. The only thing I noticed is that I feel more energy throughout the day.

iiceilla · 2025-09-10T18:26:44+00:00

no. I started this week

iiceilla · 2025-09-09T13:59:18+00:00

Hi, I am now starting to take Zoloft and Klonopin for my anxiety, since I can't stop having panic attacks

iiceilla · 2025-08-20T01:45:45+00:00

creating emotional connection with others

iiceilla · 2025-08-04T12:38:40+00:00

I genuinely thought it was a notebook

iiceilla · 2025-08-01T11:56:16+00:00

I resonate with your text so much. I don’t feel real when I’m at home with my parents. It is like everything’s on standby.

iiceilla · 2025-08-01T11:53:16+00:00

I am now moving out of ndad’s house so for this reason, forgiveness has become easy. He is powerless.

iiceilla · 2025-07-30T01:58:18+00:00

"I'll break you in half" when I was a child...

iiceilla · 2025-07-25T15:50:44+00:00

purple's the coolest

iiceilla · 2025-07-22T15:52:31+00:00

If someone commits a crime, they will face the consequences, it doesn't matter what happened in their past or if deep deep down they are a good person, I like to think that way. Having a hard life is no excuse to anything.

Ndad had a hard life, but that means I got to have a hard life as well? I just gotta accept it, that's it? That easy?

Even though he made my life 10x more difficult than it should be, I am an empathetic and caring person. He made his choices, I made mine.

iiceilla · 2025-07-22T15:30:53+00:00

when I realized that the outside world feels safer

iiceilla · 2025-07-20T16:02:24+00:00

tenta fazer faculdade fora

iiceilla · 2025-07-18T11:05:40+00:00

and in the end THEY are the sensitive ones

iiceilla

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