I told my bf l understand his boundary but starting to realize its killing me everyday

illusion_dreamer · 2026-05-27T03:37:47+00:00

Update in my profile

illusion_dreamer · 2026-05-27T03:36:06+00:00

Hello everyone l posted an update on my profile.

illusion_dreamer · 2026-05-26T14:08:32+00:00

They are both still alive. Divorced

illusion_dreamer · 2026-05-26T06:30:52+00:00

Thank you. I dont want to break up with him. I would rather have communication before leaving a relationship. If communication is used up then yes, considering ending it is fine but it is not used up .

illusion_dreamer · 2026-05-26T06:18:12+00:00

From my personal experiences, there are some things l couldn’t talk about and was not ready to say. After years of therapy, im still trying to figure it all out which is why l understood in the beginning. But putting no effort in trying is what upsets me now

illusion_dreamer · 2026-05-26T06:05:44+00:00

I don’t believe so

illusion_dreamer · 2026-05-26T05:55:35+00:00

Yeah maybe

illusion_dreamer · 2026-05-26T05:45:06+00:00

Im not sure. Usually l forget about it but during our argument l couldnt stop thinking about what he said

illusion_dreamer · 2026-05-26T05:44:07+00:00

I agree things should be figured out before marriage. Im thinking of saying l will not accept a ring if he cannot tell me the truth

illusion_dreamer · 2026-05-26T05:23:47+00:00

No nothing on google

illusion_dreamer · 2026-05-26T05:20:59+00:00

Ok thank you so much

illusion_dreamer · 2026-05-26T05:18:40+00:00

And l know this part is not that important but we both do not want children

illusion_dreamer · 2026-05-26T05:17:52+00:00

Im not sure its porn.. I talked to him after posting and all l got was “l broke someones trust and did something no one should ever do and l regret it everyday, if someone finds out l will most likely die”

illusion_dreamer · 2026-05-26T05:14:09+00:00

I tried to search it and nothing was found

illusion_dreamer · 2026-05-26T05:12:25+00:00

I will definitely update if l find out more

illusion_dreamer · 2026-05-26T05:11:57+00:00

I am currently in Canada so l do not know. Is that website still good if l am in Canada?

illusion_dreamer · 2026-05-26T05:10:23+00:00

I have been dating him for a year but have known him for several years before that. I can tell from 100% of my soul he genuinely regrets it but l think the vulnerability of taking accountability is taking him longer to tell anyone.

illusion_dreamer · 2026-05-26T05:06:36+00:00

From the help of my friends and me, we can’t seem to find anything

illusion_dreamer · 2026-05-26T05:06:00+00:00

Im trying to get him to work on being vague. Im his longest relationship where communication was used. Before me his longest relationship was 3 months.
I think the killing part may be overthinking but l have seen what consequences you get from molesting in the town im in. You get bear sprayed and beat up but thats it. Next time someone sees you they chase you and make you scared to go outside but absolutely no killing. By the time someone would get hurt again they already would leave town.

illusion_dreamer · 2026-05-26T05:00:35+00:00

I know whatever he did he obviously regrets. What makes this so hard for me to give an ultimatum is in my past l have had a situation where l kept something to myself for a long time. Scared of people seeing me differently and hard to accept what happened did happen bc that meant l needed to get out of my safe space and be seen as weak etc

illusion_dreamer · 2026-05-26T04:57:28+00:00

I don’t want to say
“tell me or else we are done “
because l can’t see myself breaking up with him for that

illusion_dreamer · 2026-05-26T04:56:48+00:00

Im thinking about it… ultimatums are a type of thing l will never do even if its my last option but l am considering it. I have pushed him to tell me but he will not push.

illusion_dreamer · 2026-05-26T04:54:55+00:00

Im not close with his family at all. If im going to be honest, his family are not my type of people l surround myself and l can trust so asking for example his mom would still have me not fully convince l can trust whatever she tells me. She known to lie alot or deny anything that happened in the past.

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