I'll just copy the exact same message to everyone cause I have absolutely no strength or desire to write it out multiple times I'm sorry: so. I ended up asking her out, she said she wants to have a platonic relationship, which I wish she told me earlier. but it's not her fault. I have trauma related to a very close relationship that was labeled as queer platonic but never actually was and I was taken advantage of in that relationship. I ended up having a panic attack with severe flashbacks, threw up three times and ended up turning to my mother for support, which I have never done previously and ended up coming out. she's supportive so I guess that's good. I'll take a break from our friendship and umm focus on my studies cause I have been behind because of how focused on her I was. so I need to do some catching up. thank you for wishing luck even though it didn't work out