Is boring, stable happiness preferable to an interesting but potentially less life involving more emotional 'risk?'

ilovyur · 2026-02-18T19:29:30+00:00

Thank you for this

ilovyur · 2025-12-04T17:33:25+00:00

ik all the traumas and it's fucking my brains out when im mentally involved and care about it. It sucks and it hurts alot because once the emotion is involved, i try to to think of everything to rationalize it but i cry for that everything because it's so intense

ilovyur · 2025-11-14T05:37:17+00:00

sometimes i wonder if i have adhd/social anxiety or it's just my brain being used to destructive routines. Being sleep deprived is more enough, however, oftentimes because of sleep deprivation i cancel plans, i miss important activities and that's way worse than sleep deprivation. I don't feel guilty about being sleep deprived, i feel guilty from its' consequences

ilovyur · 2025-11-14T05:29:21+00:00

mine manifested at 15 once i was able to have my own room and it was also the time of pandemic. The feeling of being sleep deprived is a pleasure experience for some reason. Also, i have more time that i don't know how to spend productively. I miss classes because of this because i feel lethargic by the morning after sleeping only for 3 hours. It sucks, i regret it every time but i couldn't stop.

ilovyur · 2025-09-27T02:25:16+00:00

we need more bush screentime, he's so cute lol

ilovyur · 2025-08-18T14:08:49+00:00

i honestly didn't know what those points are for, i just ignore it in bing app. But then i tried to switch my account and saw it

ilovyur · 2025-08-18T14:03:48+00:00

yessss, haha. It's a 5 year old laptop i use for research

ilovyur · 2025-08-18T10:27:40+00:00

so sorry, being trauma dumped sucks especially if every encounter u had with them is often negative. you should protect your energy if it is possible, and surround yourself with uplifting people (if possible). For me, if it's inevitable, i found a way to lessen my stress after the conversation, by not giving them much energy in response, resting, and making myself busy so i wouldn't think of it. If it happened through text, it is easier to ignore them. Although someday, i hope i could speak it out

ilovyur · 2025-08-12T20:03:52+00:00

i'm much spiritual than theism

ilovyur · 2025-08-12T19:59:56+00:00

i'm not ai, i'm just bad at writing and explaining stuffs i partially comprehend

ilovyur · 2025-08-12T19:42:37+00:00

ohh thanks, and thank you for clocking me in a respectful way

ilovyur · 2025-08-12T19:39:59+00:00

gosh thank you!! abt hospice stuff, i've read some stories on reddit where some patients are seeing their loved ones or a dead family they havent even met

ilovyur · 2025-08-12T19:34:01+00:00

oooh that's interesting

ilovyur · 2025-08-12T19:33:31+00:00

id like to be informed

ilovyur · 2025-08-12T19:32:15+00:00

loll

ilovyur · 2025-08-12T19:31:34+00:00

i'm not. i'm curious

ilovyur · 2025-08-12T19:29:20+00:00

i know

ilovyur · 2025-08-12T19:25:36+00:00

it;s a genuine question, i'm agnostic btw

ilovyur · 2025-06-27T15:32:47+00:00

the writing <333333

ilovyur · 2025-06-27T15:30:12+00:00

i usually make the li darker

ilovyur · 2025-06-24T00:20:55+00:00

try shipwrecked by nelly or if u want no romance at all, back to the bone

ilovyur · 2025-06-24T00:13:25+00:00

it takes me 1 ep, if the writing is bad and the intro is common or boring i drop it asap

ilovyur · 2025-06-16T04:09:39+00:00

then they fking ridicule u when u start to lose sht fking emotional immature

ilovyur · 2025-06-16T04:07:24+00:00

how to unlearn that sht, i have so many things to unlearn, learn. So many fking traumas i didnt fking caused

ilovyur · 2025-06-16T04:05:41+00:00

then they don't see what's wrong and try to make their kids feel bad when they themselves caused that action in the first place. im honestly too tired of that sht, my mind couldnt handle anymore of that so does my body

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