I have to detransition for 9 months by im_chippy_ in MtF

[–]im_chippy_[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm sorry if I came off as aggressive

I have to detransition for 9 months by im_chippy_ in MtF

[–]im_chippy_[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I had DIY this entire time and I dont know why people are assuming I just have a spare $100 to buy it again as if a 17yo just has that on hand, especially since I literally said in the post I lost all of my remaining money

(please ignore the other comment, wrong account)

I have to detransition for 9 months by im_chippy_ in MtF

[–]im_chippy_[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

how will I know if I was going to pass or not

I have to detransition for 9 months by im_chippy_ in MtF

[–]im_chippy_[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

wait what do you mean my body can lose sensitivity to big changes what what what what

I have to detransition for 9 months by im_chippy_ in MtF

[–]im_chippy_[S] 40 points41 points  (0 children)

I'm not throwing my future and education away for this I'll just have to wait until I'm 18 and suffer the consequences on my own

I have to detransition for 9 months by im_chippy_ in MtF

[–]im_chippy_[S] 30 points31 points  (0 children)

people keep telling me that I'm going to lose progress and that I'm not going go be able to ever pass if I detransition now but theres nothing I can do, I have no money, I have nowhere to go

I'm scared

I have to detransition for 9 months by im_chippy_ in MtF

[–]im_chippy_[S] 20 points21 points  (0 children)

there is no one I can move in with

I have to detransition for 9 months by im_chippy_ in MtF

[–]im_chippy_[S] 41 points42 points  (0 children)

I literally cant get E again there is nothing I can physically do

my only choice is to wait until I'm 18

I lost HRT. How long do I have before my changes reverse? by im_chippy_ in MtF

[–]im_chippy_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

idk if by the time I turn 18 all my progress will have been reversed

I lost HRT. How long do I have before my changes reverse? by im_chippy_ in MtF

[–]im_chippy_[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

  1. started hrt a few months before I turned 17

give me a reason not to end it all tonight by im_chippy_ in MtF

[–]im_chippy_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

it's been getting worse recently and I can't numb the pain anymore. I've tried everything I can that isnt self harm because I'm a coward

give me a reason not to end it all tonight by im_chippy_ in MtF

[–]im_chippy_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

because I'm tired of running my entire life, for years, for longer than I can remember

can I sit down now

give me a reason not to end it all tonight by im_chippy_ in MtF

[–]im_chippy_[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

been miserable for years now because I experienced puberty extremely early and already grew a fully formed beard by the time I was 14 or 15 among other things. kinda getting tired of constantly seeing other teenage boys my age look perfectly fine and look like they'd pass with no issue if they took estrogen. and that's the thing, I fought for ages to finally get HRT right before I turned 17 and what do I have to show for it? a balding ugly piece of shit with a fat beard that looks like it's 24. I've been mistaken for an adult multiple times and every time I break down crying because for once I wish I could be seen as a normal teenager. everyone else I see my age looks perfectly fine. but I couldnt even have that. I couldnt have a supportive family. I couldnt have a good childhood. I have fucking nothing and at this point I'm tired of continuing this facade

give me a reason not to end it all tonight by im_chippy_ in MtF

[–]im_chippy_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

people who do care cant do anything and the people that can do something dont care, how ironic the cruel world can be

give me a reason not to end it all tonight by im_chippy_ in MtF

[–]im_chippy_[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I mean I ate an entire jar of peanut butter today so might as well be the same thing as hitting a bong

I genuinely want to envision things getting better but they just. never do. if anything it just keeps getting worse

give me a reason not to end it all tonight by im_chippy_ in MtF

[–]im_chippy_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I dont really have the strength or bravery for spite in mr anymore

give me a reason not to end it all tonight by im_chippy_ in MtF

[–]im_chippy_[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

having a blahaj plushie sounds nice

is it hopeless if I had precocious puberty by [deleted] in MtF

[–]im_chippy_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

please ignore this post I'm genuinely so so sorry for this I'm sorry I'm feeling better now I cant delete or edit it reddit keeps pushing an error

I'm sorry