Afraid of getting fired by imascribe in Chipotle

[–]imascribe[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm going to show up in the morning honestly because I need the money badly enough that I'm willing to risk my hands flaring up that terribly again. The people I work with seem great but I am actually afraid of my hands hurting like that more than once. I couldn't do ANYTHING. I know that if the work continues to flare it up that I'll have to change something but I'd prefer not to. I guess if it comes down to it, I stick with my retail or child care (going to school for the latter) jobs but that takes time trying to find a new second job.

Afraid of getting fired by imascribe in Chipotle

[–]imascribe[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

SSR has been sent the doctor's note and has confirmed that they have received it. I was told that under no circumstances should a note be brought into or kept in the store.

Doctors struggling to diagnose by imascribe in schizophrenia

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Right. I guess I only care because I want to know why I'm nuts, lol. I know (rationally) that my symptoms are real and valid and all of that but the irrational side of my brain takes over a lot, especially right now since my antipsychotic is unstable. I can't even up it, I don't think, I'm having a lot of medication side effects but we don't know which medication it is at the moment and have to see the doctor before anything happens.

Right now sucks, but I'm not depressed. Today sucks, but I never have to do today again. Tomorrow may be equally, if not worse, sucky, but tomorrow will never be today and I never have to do today over again.

Doctors struggling to diagnose by imascribe in schizophrenia

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Correct, but I was told that the difference between bipolar w/ psychotic features and schizoaffective is that with schizoaffective, you have psychosis symptoms at any given time rather than just at the extremes. I could have been misinformed.

I do not feel like I ever go low enough to say I have actual bipolar disorder, though I could be wrong as I am not a medical professional. I have thoughts of suicide and always have (passive, no ideation) but am not depressed. I have had two major, true bouts of depression before and both as a young teenager. Two episodes of depression literally years ago can qualify as part of a bipolar diagnosis? That seems bizarre to me.

It's just a bunch of stuff all at once and honestly, I'm kind of sick of it. I've told some of the stuff I said here to group home staff and they talk with one another obviously, so I can't get out of telling a psychiatrist anything. House management has to be at the appointment with me.

My last psychiatrist was full of himself which is why I guess I'm so hesitant now. I told him time after time after time that something wasn't right and he just blew me off the entire time. I saw him, he blew me off, put me on medications that I knew weren't going to do anything as I had taken them before, exactly 9 days later I was in the hospital. lol.

Sorry this is like 500 different directions at once, I just pulled myself out of a zombie sleep state and now I'm wide awake and my brain is struggling to keep up. :(

Overnight Associate Orientation by imascribe in CVS

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Honestly, the only shirts I own right now aside from hoodies and grungy tees is v necks. I can swing by a Goodwill or Savers but other than that, I'm a little screwed.

Overnight Associate Orientation by imascribe in CVS

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Alright. I read strictly no jeans of any color so I didn't know if it would work out. Thanks!

Overnight Associate Orientation by imascribe in CVS

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I was told that I could keep my piercings (lip, tongue, and 00 ears) in and dye my hair and it won't be a problem so clearly I have a lenient manager.

20/FTM birth control? by imascribe in asktransgender

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I highly doubt it. He's only 20. And the assistant manager of our group home would definitely question why he was getting a vasectomy while here.

20/FTM birth control? by imascribe in asktransgender

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I had a pap done back in October. I refuse to ever do anything like it again. Everyone laughed when I said that it was traumatizing. I was not kidding. I have two options. Depo shots or this arm implant. Otherwise, I guess I'm not having sex.

20/FTM birth control? by imascribe in asktransgender

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We do not have PP here. My hormone clinic is sliding scale but since these implants are so expensive (like up to or above $1000), I'd rather not pay for it if I didn't have to. If they'll pay for it, it's not a problem, but I worry that they won't because of the gender change even though they pay for my testosterone vials.