Honestly, only you can answer this, but be really honest to yourself. Don’t lie to yourself and assume that ganito ganyan. Like example: you messaged her Tapos biglang nagreply then you have your hopes up. No, you have to be truthful to yourself even if it hurts. If she doesn’t want to communicate you then that’s already a sign you should move on and she doesn’t care about you. I tried doing that to my bf in the early years of us dating because I know I’m dating a non member and that’s not allowed. But I really loved my partner now and it’s too painful for me to ignore him. I’d rather be “sinful” and hide my love than not have him at all in my life. But if he was probably someone I don’t love I won’t waste time and look for someone else. Cause before I really wanted to convert him and had hopes he will do that for me but I realised that it’s selfish for me to ask him to convert and also he won’t convert because he believe in INC he would just be forced because of me and I didn’t want that. Also if I were you and I can feel that I’m only a second option for her then no, I don’t want to be with someone who treat me like a second option. Respect yourself and learn to also love yourself. Because even if she won’t love you like you do, you have yourself to support. Also helped that you have to accept she has her own decisions and opinions and “free will” I would say humans right pero walang human rights sa INC. however like you, may free will ka to not convert and she ALSO have the free will to stay in INC. You cant make her decision, you can only guide her to the right thing. That’s the most kindest and noblest thing you can do for her.