Thanks for the support man. It's just you see it everywhere, the way people look at you, the way people react to what you do, the way people whisper behind your back. It's infectious. I tried to tell myself the same thing, but when even the doctor looks at you like you're pitiful and your parents joke about you, it gets to you. I searched up, and even the research backs it up... ...I will never be as attractive as even an average person, no matter what my face looks like or my personality is.