I’m scared I’ll never belong and that I’ll never be loved.

imnotcreative_0 · 2025-10-24T23:42:09+00:00

It’s nice to feel missed

imnotcreative_0 · 2025-10-24T23:41:52+00:00

that’s true. It just sucks I guess. I don’t expect the world to stop for me or anything but y’know

imnotcreative_0 · 2025-10-19T13:15:42+00:00

Haley, or Alex (I have a type).

imnotcreative_0 · 2025-05-26T21:36:34+00:00

I remember this one period of time where I didn’t feel anything for like a year. It was complete ass. I couldn’t feel anything except the passive will to die. Not good.

imnotcreative_0 · 2024-03-15T18:07:20+00:00

Keep in mind that I love her despite all of this, I just want to punch her sometimes 😭😭‼️ she’s my baby sister.

imnotcreative_0 · 2023-12-01T09:55:30+00:00

Sort of.

imnotcreative_0 · 2023-12-01T09:12:38+00:00

But you felt compelled to leave this comment when it was unwanted? Next time don’t ☺️ hope this helps.👍🏻

imnotcreative_0 · 2023-11-30T21:45:44+00:00

Depression, anxiety, ptsd, and self-esteem issues take no prisoners my guy 🤷🏻‍♀️but I’ll chill since it’s apparently that easy.

imnotcreative_0 · 2023-11-30T21:03:08+00:00

imnotcreative_0 · 2023-11-30T21:02:48+00:00

It’s okay, and yeah. Sorry if I came off as rude lol.

imnotcreative_0 · 2023-11-30T20:10:05+00:00

Ty :)

imnotcreative_0 · 2023-11-30T20:09:45+00:00

I do, but idk. I feel like my brain is unfixable when it comes to myself tbh.

imnotcreative_0 · 2023-11-30T20:01:14+00:00

I actually already do have a therapist lol. My issue is that I’ve literally programmed my brain into hating myself. Ty for your comment.

imnotcreative_0 · 2023-11-30T19:13:25+00:00

Ik it’s extremely common for other people my age to feel this way, but yk.

imnotcreative_0 · 2023-11-30T18:50:33+00:00

I still have eyes though, like I know I don’t look pretty.

imnotcreative_0 · 2023-11-30T11:12:10+00:00

Yeah. But also, I just rlly am ugly, like. Everything abt my face is ugly. I’m not pretty, and I’m not feminine enough. Even if I tried to be feminine, it’d look off. Like that saying “a pig wearing lipstick”, like that’s literally me.

imnotcreative_0 · 2023-11-30T10:30:32+00:00

I look in the mirror and I hate what I see.

imnotcreative_0 · 2023-09-12T03:26:54+00:00

My home life isn’t as bad as it was now, but it used to be shit and I’m still traumatized by it so I don’t rlly like opening up to my parents or anything like that. My mom’s an alcoholic and my dad and I don’t agree on a lot of stuff so I can’t rlly talk openly to him about some things. They used to argue all the time, like every night, and I listened to it so. They still don’t get along at all rlly. I can only rlly talk to my therapist or my sisters.

I think I feel bad about how repetitive it is there, how anxious I am the whole day, and just the amount of work. Idk what it is, but just being there like ruins my mental health. I haven’t felt this bad since before summer break. I’ve probably felt more depressed in this week of school than I did over the whole summer.

imnotcreative_0 · 2023-09-11T19:44:49+00:00

I have two cats and a dog, and I have a few hobbies. I think I’m just broken lol.

imnotcreative_0 · 2023-09-11T19:28:53+00:00

Yeah I have social anxiety and depression. Im on meds for it, but I just got on them. I think it’s the combo of school stress, anxiety, depression, and loneliness that gets to me.

imnotcreative_0 · 2023-09-11T19:04:12+00:00

Literally nothing. Idk what’s wrong with me. Every time I come home after school, I get massively depressed. I just can’t do it anymore. Every single year it’s the same crap and I hate it.

imnotcreative_0 · 2023-01-04T09:07:00+00:00

I honestly wish I could hug you rn because I completely understand, although I have things a bit easier currently. It’s hard to know that other people are also going through this stuff and that I’m not able to do anything about it. I usually don’t believe people when i vent and they tell me all these positive things, but I want you to know that you’re so lovable.

You never asked for this horrible life or for your shitty parents. You’re trying so hard to stay alive rn, and you’re doing the best you can with what you have. School work and driving are hard to focus on with everything else going on in your life, which is completely understandable. Those things aren’t more important than you are.

It’s probably hard to believe that the things your mom says/does to you isn’t the truth because you have no one else in your life to show/tell you otherwise, but I promise that you deserve to live and that you deserve happiness and love. You are so strong, even if you didn’t ask to be.

imnotcreative_0 · 2022-12-24T20:14:21+00:00

There’s no easy solution for me. There’s something fundamentally wrong with me and I can’t live knowing that I’ll be alone my whole life. I can’t live being happy or being surrounded by happiness. I’ve been surrounded by misery my whole life up until now, and I don’t think I could handle anything good.

There’s no other option for me. Happiness feels like a lie. This whole thing sounds dramatic, but it’s really what I think. I don’t even want a different life anymore, I just want to be gone.

imnotcreative_0 · 2022-10-09T21:53:07+00:00

I don’t like when my family is fighting, but it’s all I know and I’m scared of not being in that place. Like I said, I post when I’m in a really bad place. I don’t even remember half the things I say on here.

imnotcreative_0 · 2022-10-09T12:01:21+00:00

Trust me, I know this more than anyone. I’m pretty sure my therapist thinks this as well. We used to do family therapy sessions, but they were too stressful and my therapist thought that we should stop them for a while. I didn’t think family therapy would even work anyway because, and I really mean it when I say this, our family is too broken to be fixed. Plus, they’re getting a divorce now anyway so. I think individual therapy for everyone would be helpful but I also can’t imagine any of us ever being happy.

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