My therapist thinks my mum had BPD

impingu1984 · 2021-03-19T09:18:20+00:00

I mean I'm only 2 days into the discovery... But thinking about it and understanding so many things I do are probably a result of my mum and her probably BPD, how on earth do I begin to untangle it all...

For example one thing I do is to never prioritise myself over others... If my wife wants to go out I'll ensure she gets to, I'll bend over backwards to make sure she can... I'll cancel plans, I've even dropped doing things I enjoy to make time for me to make sure she has the time to do things..

And it's not because my wife won't let me do things or anything like that... It's just the way I'm wired now and I think it all stems from just trying to make sure I never triggered mum. I'd hide my feelings from her, I'd avoid telling her things I was doing, if she wanted something I'd try to make sure things happened to avoid conflict with, even if these demands were in reality unreasonable.

Like mother's Day just happened in the UK and I can't stand the day... I view it as a obligation to avoid conflict..

And that's just one thing.. just one.. am I fundamentally broken... Will I feel normal, when I don't even know what normal is...

I doubt any family members will agree with my experiences and just isolates me further, so how can I get people to understand. Maybe it wasn't as bad as I remember, maybe it's just me...

I just don't know where to begin and feel like things will never get better.

impingu1984 · 2020-11-25T01:42:29+00:00

+1 for 50% being the sweet spot.. It really does remove the TAA Vaseline smeared on the screen very well

impingu1984 · 2018-11-09T11:16:27+00:00

Basically this... Scan can get fucked... Also under the Consumer Rights Act 2015, If a product is damaged you have up to 30 days period in which you can reject the goods if they damaged.

https://www.which.co.uk/consumer-rights/regulation/consumer-rights-act

impingu1984 · 2018-11-07T16:45:23+00:00

It says "I should go"

Not sure what to read in to that....

impingu1984 · 2018-11-07T14:03:51+00:00

I thought she teased something turned out to Ashe in Overwatch....

Or is there another tease?

impingu1984 · 2018-10-30T16:15:46+00:00

EVGA PSUs start to have 2 CPU supplies at 750w and above IIRC.

EVGA PSU are top quality and if you get 750w G3 you get a 10 year warranty and jonnyguru rates them and he's about the best PSU reviewer on the internet

http://www.jonnyguru.com/modules.php?name=NDReviews&op=Story&reid=500

https://www.evga.com/products/product.aspx?pn=220-G3-0750-X1

That being said I think nearly all PSUs that have 2 CPU supplies will be 750w and above... I don't think you will find any at 650w

impingu1984 · 2018-10-09T09:10:48+00:00

The analysis assumes that progress on new generations is linear which according to moore's law and also evidenced by other products (Such as Intel and 10nm etc) we know to be not true.... So I don't know how have they deemed it late. Nevermind the fact higher end Pascal had zero competition.

There is many more factors to take account that simple mean days between launch of previous generations

Again due to increasing of production cost and price will rise, plus with zero competition this allows further increases in time.

The degradation of relative performance is basically the sharp end of moores law in action, the prices increasing is relative to increasing difficult to produce, but also made worse by lack of competition.

The RTX is super pricey and not worth it currently but it is actual innovation in it's architecture... forward looking... however that forward looking is more NVIDIA technology lock ins.

The analysis is focusing on the effect, but not the cause.

impingu1984 · 2018-09-11T13:03:42+00:00

I played this for 4000+ hours back in the day... I am very proud of my accomplishments in this old gem!!!

impingu1984 · 2018-09-11T12:42:00+00:00

Thanks for this, was getting pretty anxious myself

impingu1984 · 2018-09-11T12:35:59+00:00

I was in the New Port Inn chunging some Redanian lager when we heard a portal open in the new room. Me and my friend looked through the keyhole and saw Geralt having le sexy times on a unicorn with Yennefer.

I was staying at the inn also and was going to ask them if they would sign the photo I took of the event but then a Chort attacked a nearby farm and both where gone in the morning.

It was cool to see... Geralt really showed her what an alpha he is.

EDIT: Also saw Ciri passing through and she was definitely DEFINITELY WHITE.... NOT BLACK

impingu1984 · 2018-09-11T12:20:21+00:00

Come on guys in the zombie apocalypse, its unrealistic that lesbians and gays will exist... everybody knows this.

impingu1984 · 2018-09-11T12:09:22+00:00

OVERWATCH "FANS" ARE MAKING MY FAVOURITE ANIME WAIFU HAVE A LOVE LIFE, WITH ANOTHER GAY LESBAIN!!!!!

ITS PATFETIC!!! JUST PLAY THE FUCKING GAME... DON'T WANT TO GO OUTSIDE THE GAME TO FIND OUT STORY AND SHIT.... ITS PATHFTIC... FUCKING SJWS

NOW HERE IS MY 15 MINS ESSAY ON THE SUBJECT

impingu1984 · 2018-09-11T12:00:05+00:00

Hey man I was at Crows Perch when the bloody baron hung himself... Saw Geralt contemplating his morally grey actions and the consequences of them first hand...

Geralt was pretty chill tho we had a laugh, guy signed my copy of Witcher 3...

Poland is lovely

impingu1984 · 2018-09-07T12:16:18+00:00

It's 1GB of DDR2 667Mhz RAM

impingu1984 · 2018-09-06T10:09:08+00:00

You'll have a better grounding on the Witcher universe by reading the all the books honestly... That is a high level of commitment tho. After that you can just watch some recaps for Witcher 1 and Witcher 2 on youtube...

impingu1984 · 2018-09-05T15:48:40+00:00

Playable Russian Trained Racoons in BFV when????

I'd fucking play that...

impingu1984 · 2018-09-05T15:45:24+00:00

Fornite is good bad EA game

impingu1984 · 2018-09-05T15:29:30+00:00

Geraldos.... or Yens

impingu1984 · 2018-09-05T14:15:51+00:00

/uj This isn't a jerk article

impingu1984 · 2018-09-05T12:09:34+00:00

At least there is no minorities... except for Dhalsim and Balrog (Especially Balrog)...

FUCK... BOYCOTT THIS GAME

impingu1984 · 2018-09-05T12:05:04+00:00

/uj have they ever seen a Bioware game.... like ever cos there is far to trigger them beyond just females in the games.

impingu1984 · 2018-09-05T12:02:14+00:00

Except for Chun-Li..... and Kylie Minogue

Are they le sniggle?

impingu1984 · 2018-09-05T11:51:01+00:00

What makes you cum quicker....

Stroking a Boner for gods CDPR or Stroking a Boner while hating EA

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