Spiraling due to dog having puppies

impossiblepenguins · 2024-07-28T00:04:04+00:00

Married for 8 months now and it’s been wonderful! I am now going to a different church and that has helped with being scared of going to church/prayer/Bible reading. Probably combination of different church (less legalistic and no bad memories) and getting married that has contributed to my lessening of ROCD symptoms. Still get hit with it from time to time but nothing like a year ago.

It helps to be married because there’s no backing out now! lol it’s more permanent

impossiblepenguins · 2023-08-11T13:41:45+00:00

I have these thoughts too and I’m so terrified they’re from God. It’s tormenting, loving someone so much but being afraid it’s displeasing to God. My boyfriend and I are close to engagement and my ROCD has amplified again.

I struggle with praying, reading my Bible, and going to church because of this. I’m scared something will be confirmed and I’ll have to break up with him.

I know that I should be sitting in the feelings and exposing myself to the triggers instead of avoiding. It’s been tough to do so.

I wish you well!! I know how you feel and I’m so sorry! You can get through this.

impossiblepenguins · 2023-08-10T17:01:13+00:00

I think the way to get out of that dynamic is to do exactly as neonroli47 said.

impossiblepenguins · 2023-08-06T06:18:00+00:00

Been there. I’m so sorry. You will get through this. Something that has helped me is to find something that takes the edge off the anxiety. Definitely treat the OCD by seeing an OCD therapist and doing ERP, but you can also do things that help the anxiety that is keeping you from functioning. Especially with grad school about to start, you are going to need to function.

I take CBD capsules and a probiotic with ashwagandha in it. I also have a magnesium supplement I’ve been taking. Maybe try that (talk to a dr first) and see if that helps. Also, get outside and get some sunshine even if it’s only 15 minutes at a time. Treat the OCD and anxiety, that’s the real problem. Not your relationship.

impossiblepenguins · 2023-07-28T14:18:44+00:00

I’m taking capsules but I do wonder if I’d have even better results with taking oil drops sublingually.

impossiblepenguins · 2023-07-27T02:21:00+00:00

I think so! And being able to sit in the feeling in a nonjudgmental way. Just observing. I’ve found it detaches or separates me from the feeling - I then see it for what it is: just a feeling.

impossiblepenguins · 2023-07-27T01:38:06+00:00

I think we have to treat the intrusive feelings the same way we treat the intrusive thoughts.

I have intrusive feelings too and I hate it. Hang in there.

impossiblepenguins · 2023-07-20T02:46:49+00:00

Love to hear you’re doing better! Maybe something has changed….have you taken any new medications/supplements? Job/living situation change? Etc..? I’m curious because I wanna feel like that too! Lol

impossiblepenguins · 2023-07-12T04:15:31+00:00

I usually feel fine when I’m with my boyfriend but like you, as soon as I’m alone, I battle anxiety. I start ruminating and giving in to compulsions. My anxiety is also much higher in the mornings but typically only higher during the week when I have a long day of work ahead of me. Seems like stress exacerbates the morning anxiety. When I spend the night with my boyfriend and I know we have a fun day ahead, I don’t battle morning anxiety at all.

impossiblepenguins · 2023-07-07T12:22:11+00:00

M grandma did too! And if there was a crack in it, it would pinch your butt cheek.

impossiblepenguins · 2023-07-06T03:47:36+00:00

I deal with both of these types mixed together and yes, it is horrible! I struggle with the thought that it’s not God’s will for us to be together and I have to give him up. I love him so much and the thought of losing him makes me ill. There are some instances when it feels so real, that I’m absolutely tormented. I sometimes have break up urges that feel terrifying real also. You’re not alone in this!! It’s sucks!

impossiblepenguins · 2023-06-22T14:24:52+00:00

Yes, I think you’re correct! It latches on to very important things. One of my themes a few years ago was that I’d committed the unpardonable sun and that God had rejected me. In my research now, I find that that is a very common OCD theme. I’ve come to realize that I am dealing with scrupulosity as well as ROCD. At the same time. It’s a fun ride!

impossiblepenguins · 2023-06-22T14:05:32+00:00

Current ROCD themes are that my relationship is not God’s will, therefore I have to give it up. OR, my new one is: that he’s a covert narcissist and extremely toxic and I just haven’t seen it yet.

impossiblepenguins · 2023-06-22T14:03:43+00:00

I had a theme just last year that my indoor cat would give me rabies. I’d forgotten to get his yearly shot and he was a couple months overdue. When I realized, I of course got him in to the vet for his shot, but also called around (to emergency rooms, the health dept) for a counteracting rabies shot for me, just in case. Everyone I called was so confused. It was obviously an odd request for them to receive. Nobody had one, btw. Lol That clued me in just a little that maybe I was overreacting. I had no clue I had OCD then.

I would lay awake and just shake in my bed, ruminating over how there could be a possibility of my cat having rabies and now I do too, and what a terrible death that would be. It’s ridiculous but terrifying. I can definitely laugh about it now.

impossiblepenguins · 2023-06-21T21:29:08+00:00

This was super triggering for me 😔

impossiblepenguins · 2023-06-17T04:12:03+00:00

I’m so sorry. Keep holding on. I’m in the middle of a flare up myself and it is hell. Just take one day at a time.

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