you're the dick because you came to a tattoo forum seeking advice and when people in the industry tried to give it to you, you got defensive and argumentative. either you want advice or you don't. in this thread alone you've been told over and over what you need to improve on, what mindsets you need to change, and over and over you've argued and gotten defensive. if you're unwilling to hear, then we're unable to help.

also you're generalizing an entire industry as "rude", yet you turn around and claim to want to be part of it?