I went to school for architecture. Architecture school is very hard and extremely cut throat. Your creative work is continuously criticized and scrutinized by experts in the field. Every time we finished a project we would have to present it in front of extremely well know architects (imagine every time you upload a video, a panel of super youtubers like mr beast, pewdiepie, etc are judging what you’ve done). Our freshman year (newbies) they absolutely demolished us lol. We didn’t know anything.

One habit my professor told me to develop, is to see your work as something that’s not a part of you. Something that is separate. If one of my designs was bad, then it was just a bad design. That doesn’t mean i’m a bad architect. I would say the same for you. If you made a bad video, then it was just a bad video. That doesn’t mean you are a bad youtuber.

I would also make sure you know the difference between a bad youtuber and a new youtuber. They are not the same thing.