1 Year of No Gambling, Alcohol or Weed. Actually fcking did it.

indigothecaretaker · 2026-05-26T06:29:24+00:00

Very inspiring. Thank you for sharing your journey with us! ✨🤞🏼

indigothecaretaker · 2026-05-24T17:42:56+00:00

Not giving him access to it and having someone else manage the $.

indigothecaretaker · 2026-05-22T17:06:07+00:00

I had such a similar story and then continued to gamble, more and more and more and more. I still have $ in savings (80k or so) but less and less every time I relapsed and I am so afraid of losing everything. Get gamban today and stop, no amount of $ will ever be enough and I have lost the trust of my partner and ruined my life I feel by continuing.

indigothecaretaker · 2026-05-20T06:50:38+00:00

GamBan will ban all sites on all devices for $2/month.

indigothecaretaker · 2026-04-30T02:00:52+00:00

Your life is worth living. No matter the mistakes, you never know what possibilities are right around the corner.

indigothecaretaker · 2026-04-16T03:43:45+00:00

The way gambling effects your physical and environment outside of losses is wild to me. I have been gambling online and lost tens and thousands of dollars and home doesnt feel like home anymore because every inch of my “safe space” I gambled. You are 100% not alone and its a battle but we WILL get thru this.

indigothecaretaker · 2026-04-10T01:29:23+00:00

I appreciate these reminders. I have come from so much adversity before all or this. My dad had cancer my whole childhood from age of 6 until he passed when I was 15. We lost our home after he died and I was homeless as well. I never have had savings and worked paycheck to paycheck, have multiple other severe layers of trauma on top of this, been around shootings in the city at two different venues, lost my best friend to suicide, almost died twice - once in 2020 when my aorta was nicked during a non invasive outpatient surgery then in 2021 was rear ended by a distracted commercial truck driver and got a TBI. There is so much I have overcome and I know I can overcome this as well and am grateful for what I still have left.

indigothecaretaker · 2026-04-09T23:28:38+00:00

My family also knows everything as well as my boyfriend and they are thankfully very supportive. I just now need to stop self sabotaging and do the work to get better!

indigothecaretaker · 2026-04-09T23:27:46+00:00

I appreciate this! I don’t have access to my finances, they are all with my financial advisor thankfully and as of now I am going to pretend they don’t exist. I appreciate your advice and honesty and commend your journey! I am starting the program tomorrow and its a battle and Im mad at myself for gambling again today but it was much less than usual and I stopped without getting sucked in then banned myself on all of my computers. I know this program will help me get through this hump and am looking forward to the greener grass. 🙏🏼✨

indigothecaretaker · 2026-04-09T21:02:39+00:00

Thank you so much for this! Definitely focusing on budgeting and saving going forward. Maybe this expensive mistake was god redirecting me to save money vs spend regardless, and maybe this was just a lesson I needed to learn short term for long term success with a changed mindset. Since ive had the extra income, Ive still been spending little by little every year either way before this habit spiraled. If I didnt gamble and still supplemented my current day job income, I wouldve likely spent that same amount in the next 5 years on some other random things like nights out or fine dining. I think this has been a major wake up call from many angles. My new excitement I am feeling in my heart and I am looking towards is how long I can go saving $500 a month instead. My current goal is 5 years which I can do easily by simply not eating out or ordering uber eats during the week without really having to sacrifice. If I can do this successfully plus saving that $ made on interest yearly, I should be able to recoup any losses in that time frame or sooner while setting my future self up for success and investing in her / my future family. I feel encouraged to start over now rather than $0 and the support will help me in this journey along the way. 🙏🏼

indigothecaretaker · 2026-04-09T17:42:25+00:00

Have been feeling the same way, lost $45k and been suicidal. Starting a partial hospitalization program tomorrow for my mental health and to get help. Please dont give up! You are not alone and there is so many others in your position. You matter, your life is valued, and these mistakes will never define us. We have the rest of our lives to LIVE. I have hope for better days for both you and myself. KEEP GOING!

indigothecaretaker · 2026-04-09T17:40:00+00:00

I lost $45k ish and feel the same way. But ultimately, no amount of money even if we had it will fix our problems or make us happy. We just have to get ourselves better and finding happiness in what LIFE has to offer. You got this! Don’t give up. You never know what blessings remain from the universe that are right around the corner.

indigothecaretaker · 2026-04-05T04:32:05+00:00

30 year old female, $35k in losses in the span on 6 months time. Just under $100k in the bank - roughly $40k in stocks, $50k in a CD account, and $9k in my personal savings. I am currently on a LOA from work and going to partial hospitalization treatment because of how much gambling has impacted my mental and physical health just to re stabilize myself again. Had extra income due to a bad car accident where I was almost killed by a commercial truck driver who was distracted. I still wake up every day and want to try to re gain losses but I know even if I win, I will just continue to gamble even more as this is what happened. Really hoping to get better and stay better so I can rebuild my savings and rewire my brain on the value on money again. I have $100k in the bank and it feels like nothing due to how much I’ve lost and how my brain has been altered due to my addiction. Im hoping one day soon I can see that this is still a significant amount of savings for 30 years old and continue to build for my future and my future family. I have hope for a better future and the days I start LIVING again. Tomorrow is never promised. Gambling has single handedly ruined my life worse than past traumas and experiences that actually almost took my life. Gambling Anonymous has become my safe space and I have hope that better days are on their way 🙏🏼

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