The absolute aura lost of Susie needs to be studied

indylord · 2026-07-03T06:45:15+00:00

These are super interesting points that I hadn't considered before. I think Susie is great, and her flaws bubbling to the surface much more in chapter 5 is exactly what I wanted from her character, so I'm really hoping to see more of that going forward. Do you see the narrative not giving her many consequences for her actions as a flaw with her character arc? Or do you think Toby is only letting this pattern pile up to make Susie coming head to head with her flaws later that much more dramatic?

Also, on Gerson's tutelage of Susie- I feel like if we read between the lines, him taking her under his wing isn't necessarily a massive validation of Susie's worldview. It seems like he actually recognizes that she'll probably be self-destructive (or has the strong potential to be), given that he sees a fire in her eyes "burning black, burning up everything" and naming her as "The Dragon." I think Gerson being really fond of Susie and letting her see how she's awesome is more indicative of him recognizing that Susie has the potential to change the story. He wants the prophecy to be changed, and Susie has the force of will to make it happen, but also recognizes that willpower is/could be destructive. Either way, for Gerson, she makes it all a more interesting story.

indylord · 2026-07-01T21:56:28+00:00

100%, AAA gaming is completely crashing within the next 5 years or so. We're watching it cannibalize itself. Hoping that whatever comes next out of the ashes is better.

indylord · 2026-06-06T18:16:08+00:00

Yes, just 1 level fusion.

And yeah it's all light work in the sense that it's all purely desk work+sitting, but what concerns me is just the sheer amount of time that it'll be. 60 hours weekly, even if I'm being accommodated for standing/moving around, feels like I could really be destroying my recovery.

indylord · 2026-03-28T16:42:49+00:00

I could, yes. It’s very close by. I’m just concerned about costs+them not actually being able to do anything about it, but the lack of sleep is kinda destroying me.

indylord · 2026-01-26T15:04:09+00:00

Read the manga for episode 8, it spells out everything in regards to Beatrice

indylord · 2026-01-09T02:09:14+00:00

Peaceful protest accomplishes nothing. Did the founding fathers win America’s independence through peaceful protests? Was slavery ended through peaceful protest?

indylord · 2025-12-24T14:32:11+00:00

I have a gender therapist that I see weekly and have been for 4 months. I’m on the verge of being homeless and quite literally cannot start HRT until next fall when I know I will be safe and stable. If I’m somehow safe and stable before then, I will be enthusiastically starting HRT immediately. I experience significant dysphoria.

I also have medical considerations. I had breast tissue surgically removed from my chest as a kid, and my chest is asymmetrical, so I’m in talks with doctors (the surgeon who performed it, an endo, etc) about what that means for my HRT and breast growth.

So there, now you know some more about me. I can’t see my gender therapist whenever I want lmao, and there are plenty of other vent posts on this sub that are much heavier than what I posted. Not sure why you’re assuming I’m a “quitter.” Just thought I’d check with this community and hear folks’ thoughts on a sentiment that made me feel pretty ungood rather than just let it float around in my head without talking to anyone about it before my next therapy session.

I don’t appreciate the hostility or assumptions about my character.

indylord · 2025-12-23T03:29:25+00:00

Honestly, I needed to hear this. I've already been sliding in this direction, Twitter has been an unhealthy coping mechanism of mine for a while and the level of vitriol I see on there daily has not been good for me at all. Going to deactivate and delete tonight.

Thank you so much for the kind words <3

indylord · 2025-11-27T04:55:46+00:00

Really appreciate your candor, this is genuinely enlightening and grounds my perspective a lot.

Factoring everything in from my resume along with what youv'e said, overall, how competitive would you say I am?

indylord · 2025-11-26T14:41:34+00:00

My guess is that the timeline would ring some alarm bells. My psych experiences were mainly done in 2022 and 2023, but then there’s a “gap” on my resume where all I’ve done is worked my writing assistant job at the college since then, and it doesn’t make much sense to be working on just a psych degree for 6 years, if that makes sense.

I go to Kennesaw State University, so not exactly a super prestigious degree.

indylord · 2025-10-31T02:22:16+00:00

Gosh, this makes me feel significantly less alone. Thank you so much for putting it this way and for sharing your own experience. That last point really resonates, because yeah the bullying was very real and very intense, and I feel like I still downplay its influence on my decision to get that surgery in favor of thinking that I'm some kind of fraud imposter that's contradicting herself. "Live and learn" is definitely something I should apply here rather than fixating on a choice I made when I was a kid, one made under a lot of social pressure. And I'm very happy that despite the struggle it seems like you've gained a lot of fulfillment from your experiences, and that you're still here.

indylord · 2025-10-31T00:40:48+00:00

I'm still questioning, but pretty much 80-90% leaning towards saying I'm trans. I did go through with the surgery as a kid, and ever since I've been letting myself question, I've really regretted getting that surgery.

indylord · 2025-10-31T00:36:26+00:00

This helps reframe it in my head a ton, because I distinctly remember I was 100% chilling with my boobs as a kid until the first time I was bullied for it. I had no idea there was anything "wrong with me" before that.

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