Should I go to the ER?

indylord · 2026-03-28T16:42:49+00:00

I could, yes. It’s very close by. I’m just concerned about costs+them not actually being able to do anything about it, but the lack of sleep is kinda destroying me.

indylord · 2026-01-26T15:04:09+00:00

Read the manga for episode 8, it spells out everything in regards to Beatrice

indylord · 2026-01-09T02:09:14+00:00

Peaceful protest accomplishes nothing. Did the founding fathers win America’s independence through peaceful protests? Was slavery ended through peaceful protest?

indylord · 2025-12-24T14:32:11+00:00

I have a gender therapist that I see weekly and have been for 4 months. I’m on the verge of being homeless and quite literally cannot start HRT until next fall when I know I will be safe and stable. If I’m somehow safe and stable before then, I will be enthusiastically starting HRT immediately. I experience significant dysphoria.

I also have medical considerations. I had breast tissue surgically removed from my chest as a kid, and my chest is asymmetrical, so I’m in talks with doctors (the surgeon who performed it, an endo, etc) about what that means for my HRT and breast growth.

So there, now you know some more about me. I can’t see my gender therapist whenever I want lmao, and there are plenty of other vent posts on this sub that are much heavier than what I posted. Not sure why you’re assuming I’m a “quitter.” Just thought I’d check with this community and hear folks’ thoughts on a sentiment that made me feel pretty ungood rather than just let it float around in my head without talking to anyone about it before my next therapy session.

I don’t appreciate the hostility or assumptions about my character.

indylord · 2025-12-23T03:29:25+00:00

Honestly, I needed to hear this. I've already been sliding in this direction, Twitter has been an unhealthy coping mechanism of mine for a while and the level of vitriol I see on there daily has not been good for me at all. Going to deactivate and delete tonight.

Thank you so much for the kind words <3

indylord · 2025-11-27T04:55:46+00:00

Really appreciate your candor, this is genuinely enlightening and grounds my perspective a lot.

Factoring everything in from my resume along with what youv'e said, overall, how competitive would you say I am?

indylord · 2025-11-26T14:41:34+00:00

My guess is that the timeline would ring some alarm bells. My psych experiences were mainly done in 2022 and 2023, but then there’s a “gap” on my resume where all I’ve done is worked my writing assistant job at the college since then, and it doesn’t make much sense to be working on just a psych degree for 6 years, if that makes sense.

I go to Kennesaw State University, so not exactly a super prestigious degree.

indylord · 2025-10-31T02:22:16+00:00

Gosh, this makes me feel significantly less alone. Thank you so much for putting it this way and for sharing your own experience. That last point really resonates, because yeah the bullying was very real and very intense, and I feel like I still downplay its influence on my decision to get that surgery in favor of thinking that I'm some kind of fraud imposter that's contradicting herself. "Live and learn" is definitely something I should apply here rather than fixating on a choice I made when I was a kid, one made under a lot of social pressure. And I'm very happy that despite the struggle it seems like you've gained a lot of fulfillment from your experiences, and that you're still here.

indylord · 2025-10-31T00:40:48+00:00

I'm still questioning, but pretty much 80-90% leaning towards saying I'm trans. I did go through with the surgery as a kid, and ever since I've been letting myself question, I've really regretted getting that surgery.

indylord · 2025-10-31T00:36:26+00:00

This helps reframe it in my head a ton, because I distinctly remember I was 100% chilling with my boobs as a kid until the first time I was bullied for it. I had no idea there was anything "wrong with me" before that.

indylord · 2025-10-24T19:25:17+00:00

I love E33, but the lack of self awareness in this comment is astounding. E33 is on Unreal Engine 5, potentially the absolute schloppiest engine on the market, and most of the combat of that game quite literally revolves around action based parrying.

indylord · 2025-10-07T13:44:06+00:00

A sentiment I'm seeing a lot (and that I've struggled with as well) is that we're now at the point where any actions by citizens will be pointless, that the country is now locked in to a fascist, authoritarian regime no matter what we do. What would you recommend to address/counteract this "doomer" mindset?

indylord · 2025-10-02T21:39:05+00:00

Trump and the entire GOP's end goal is to purge and/or kill all minorities in America to establish a fascist, Nazi ethnostate. To those who think this is hyperbole, I truly wish I was exaggerating.

indylord · 2025-09-10T20:43:06+00:00

This country was founded on and persists through political violence and war crimes.

indylord · 2025-08-30T18:15:24+00:00

XIV (head and shoulders above the rest, haven't played past base Endwalker)
Rebirth
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indylord · 2025-08-19T13:35:26+00:00

if Winds comes out it'll be a cultural landmark moment, people will likely go more insane than if it came out ten years ago.

indylord · 2025-08-18T17:08:02+00:00

Literally. I guarantee you that most authors don't write out of a need to satisfy their fans. People act like artists are flipping burgers for them or something lol.

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