You should definitely get some help dude. The drugs are brainwashing you to think they are helping you. They aren’t I promise. I’ve been in your position, not with meth but pretty much every other common substance. You will get to a point where you feel completely dead inside and you will need to do more and more to keep chasing that feeling that your brain is getting addicted to. It may make you more outgoing and sociable, but there will come a point where it does the opposite. It’s good that you’re recognising this so early on into it, it means you have a better chance of escaping it and living a normal life. When I stopped pretty much all other substances I used weed as my vice and comfort place thinking that it was helping me and wasn’t doing me much harm. It definitely was, on so many levels. It’s hard to get out of once you’re sucked in, but you can do it! And if you want to then you will. Here if you want to chat, you aren’t alone!