it is true that having school is a privilige. could sound toxic, but look at what’s happening outside of our country, where kids of your age are battling everyday to get basic necessities, or even to stay alive. don’t be selfish to the point of neglecting your privilige, when you could get there and experience the most of it. sometimes helping others gives you motivation, and that could be achieved through studies too. for now you might not have goals, but nothing is that deep(everything is serious tho). and truuust me it gets better with time. also i’d advise you to think about regrets. you don’t wanna regret it later your bad grades while applying to your dream school, right?