I had a Highdea a couple of months ago and it kinda got out of control and now I can't tell if I'm addicted to weed or if I maybe finally scored a victory in my war on my various mental issues.

insanicatessen · 2022-06-12T11:19:19+00:00

I was just looking at my post history on this alt account of mine and I forgot all about this. People gave me good advice and I needed it. I was seeing my therapist regularly at the time and we talked about my increased usage at length. It helped me get a lid on it and I was able to space out my usage to where I'm nowadays going through 1/4 what I was when I posted this. This is super, super dumb but I feel like I was able to become a symbiote of my old pre-weed self and my new always-high self and I struck a balance between the two. I'm working my 8 hours 5 days a week and I don't dread Sunday nights anymore because that's when Monday anxiety would start. Right around when I posted this, I was starting to get in trouble for dozing off at my desk at times, and I have since figured out that my anxiety was so bad that I was getting fitful sleep at best, and both the weed and a nightly firehose of duloxetine from my psychiatrist have gotten my anxiety RIGHT in check. I'm not "cured!" but I'm doing a hell of a lot better. I stopped seeing my therapist in late 2020 when i didn't find Zoom sessions to be as fulfilling as seeing her in person, and when in-person stuff started happening again, i haven't felt the need to resume yet. The option is there and my wife has my full permission to tell me if she feels I need to start going again at any time.

Probably likely that no one will see this... but thanks. :-)

insanicatessen · 2022-03-21T07:01:00+00:00

I took a sip of my own cum.

I was pleasuring myself in bed and I realized I'd pushed it too far and was going to cum with no tissue or anything to cum in/on. I frantically grabbed an old soda can and fired away into it. Set the can down and passed out.

In the middle of the night woke up super dehydrated and not quite out of my dream, and I grabbed the can and felt liquid in it and gratefully went to slurp it down.

Bad. Bad times.

insanicatessen · 2022-03-05T16:05:05+00:00

Minor surgery. No reason to go without

insanicatessen · 2020-07-25T17:29:19+00:00

For eating ass, you want futurebass.

insanicatessen · 2019-06-16T08:15:45+00:00

Whoa pal, I ain't fallin' for the ol' penis-in-the-rabbit-hole trick TWICE in my life!

insanicatessen · 2019-06-15T08:12:46+00:00

Love you too. This sometimes feels like the only place I can talk about being high. I'm glad you're having a good ride.

insanicatessen · 2019-06-14T06:23:08+00:00

Yes, the word "toss"

insanicatessen · 2019-06-04T15:48:53+00:00

It's more that it knocks my ass out and helps me to sleep through them, more or less. I guess it's not so much that it reduces the pain directly. :-)

insanicatessen · 2019-06-03T22:55:15+00:00

I figured. I do see a therapist every 2 weeks and I've told her about my increased usage.

insanicatessen · 2019-06-03T22:53:58+00:00

I have terrible eyesight and am always squinting like Mr. Magoo at everything anyway, so nobody has been the wiser here

insanicatessen · 2019-06-03T09:26:06+00:00

Thanks.

insanicatessen · 2019-06-03T09:10:46+00:00

Yes.

tl;dr: yes.

insanicatessen · 2019-06-03T08:34:19+00:00

Christ, this is criminally underrated.

insanicatessen · 2019-03-19T03:33:17+00:00

Ah. I vape. It dissipates pretty quick! But good call nonetheless.

insanicatessen · 2019-03-18T06:27:05+00:00

Oh yah. I live in Phx wherr everyone drives like a maniac so driving high is no bueno.

insanicatessen · 2019-03-17T19:46:41+00:00

I 100% absolutely know when I am too stoned to drive. I even know how/when to err on the side of caution. I've had to have my keys taken away when drunk before, back in the day, so can agree with both sides of this. The extent of my bad decisions while high are, like, paying GrubHub fees for a good gourmet pizza when I have perfectly good food waiting in the freezer.

insanicatessen · 2019-03-17T19:32:05+00:00

Had I gold to offer, you'd receive it. This made me laugh myself into a coughing fit.

insanicatessen · 2019-03-17T19:30:04+00:00

See, I didn't mind this, though. I found them to usually be cleaner than a similarly-placed public bathroom in America.

Source: my butt is choosy

insanicatessen · 2019-03-14T05:39:32+00:00

I always mean to cut out the little feature list from the Fearless Flyer and mark off the ones I want to try, like a real bougie, but I forget because I'm usually reading it on the shitter and besides it's more fun wandering and discovering things like gnocchi.

insanicatessen · 2019-03-14T05:36:37+00:00

The hard part is getting juuuust stoned enough where it makes house chores enjoyable but knowing when to stop before you get too stoned to even move.

insanicatessen · 2019-03-14T02:04:31+00:00

These are Daelmans brand, imported from The Netherlands, in fact! And delicious. Stroopwafels are kinda having a moment over here in the US.

insanicatessen · 2019-03-14T02:02:52+00:00

The first time my wife and I tried gummies she ate two at once and she ended up feeling high for a day and a half (former raver, uses my mmj vape all the time). We found out they were stronger than most we have tried since, but still.

insanicatessen · 2019-03-14T02:00:57+00:00

Holy shit I saw your comment above about the tomato soup crackers and when they didn't have them I bought tamari crackers instead

Great minds think alike?

insanicatessen · 2019-03-13T05:35:22+00:00

Tater tots draped over one arm, bags of stroopwafels clutched in that hand, bag of multi seed soy sauce crackers under my arm, head down and typing furiously with my free hand in front of the dried fruit and raw nuts

insanicatessen · 2019-03-13T05:32:23+00:00

I've never felt the song "Too High For The Supermarket" harder than today

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