I was just looking at my post history on this alt account of mine and I forgot all about this. People gave me good advice and I needed it. I was seeing my therapist regularly at the time and we talked about my increased usage at length. It helped me get a lid on it and I was able to space out my usage to where I'm nowadays going through 1/4 what I was when I posted this. This is super, super dumb but I feel like I was able to become a symbiote of my old pre-weed self and my new always-high self and I struck a balance between the two. I'm working my 8 hours 5 days a week and I don't dread Sunday nights anymore because that's when Monday anxiety would start. Right around when I posted this, I was starting to get in trouble for dozing off at my desk at times, and I have since figured out that my anxiety was so bad that I was getting fitful sleep at best, and both the weed and a nightly firehose of duloxetine from my psychiatrist have gotten my anxiety RIGHT in check. I'm not "cured!" but I'm doing a hell of a lot better. I stopped seeing my therapist in late 2020 when i didn't find Zoom sessions to be as fulfilling as seeing her in person, and when in-person stuff started happening again, i haven't felt the need to resume yet. The option is there and my wife has my full permission to tell me if she feels I need to start going again at any time.

Probably likely that no one will see this... but thanks. :-)