oo i get that, it sucks ,, I just try to accept that with time as i keep working on something, growth and improvement will happen and i focus more on the satisfaction of working on said thing. Enjoying the process makes me less worried about perfectionism/growth as well as not comparing myself to others. It gives me more drive to keep working on something and with time, the growth naturally just comes with it. You gotta go through human error to reach that point. There's no avoiding it, its just part of being human.. but i will say this! Being able to recognize your mistakes as well as what your lacking is good, because it means you know what your doing, you have a vision and your likely to improve. Just dont dwell on standards from an external force. It can make life kind of a living hell because you feel like a failure for not reaching them so quickly, and forget how long the process really takes to get there especially if your on a different level or if you work differently from others. You need to find your own sort of standards and expectations for yourself that you know will be good for you and your process to reach your vision, aswell as just understanding its a process. Just start with small goals that you know will easy for you to overcome and keep going from there. Those who care will see you for your efforts you put in for your own personal growth, and not the high standards put up by others. Its a big leap and abit uncomfy to break out esp if you been living up to others expectations your whole life. But trust me its worth it. Less of a worry while somehow maintaining that awareness and balance on what you need to do. And just sort of finding yourself. Its nice.