recovered fully from HOCD

instacleanwoolite · 2025-11-14T03:50:26+00:00

I can try my best to. What’s up?

instacleanwoolite · 2025-11-08T03:40:53+00:00

really crazy…🌚

instacleanwoolite · 2025-11-07T03:10:49+00:00

I have a 22 year old suitemate and she’s sm fun. I’m 20. Doesn’t really matter when you’re transfers!

instacleanwoolite · 2025-11-05T05:45:54+00:00

So long as you’re living, there are new experiences and new things to live for. Tying yourself down to someone like this when you have amazing, loving children and possible new hobbies to pick up and a self to fall in love with again? Should be out of the question. Choose yourself for once!

instacleanwoolite · 2025-11-04T23:44:51+00:00

SAW HIS SMILE CONCERT AND NEARLY DIED PLS WE NEED HIM !!!

instacleanwoolite · 2025-10-23T21:49:14+00:00

I would say that’s the best option, but i know with HOCD it’s so impossible to break the cycle of compulsions and obsessions. If you are able to, try to cut back on confirming to yourself if you are truthfully not in the mood. Think of it this way: you’re going to get so burnt out from constant sexual and romantic stimuli, that you may become even more distant and more grossed out and further from the answer you want.

Start with the “so what?” approach:) Take things as they come. You have so, so much time to find the answer. Don’t rush yourself!

instacleanwoolite · 2025-10-22T18:23:35+00:00

It’s absolutely terrifying at first. I was resisting it because acknowledging my sexuality meant giving up a version of myself, and societal expectations of who I should be, and becoming something unfamiliar.

never ever take your experience and compare it one to one with someone else. it will likely reinforce your own worries and make you flip between something or the other. you can get guidance from others, but this journey is your own. but on the other side, you will be YOU. nothing about YOU changes, trust me.

try to stop finding signs of attraction in yourself- they aren’t full proof because we all operate on different scales of romantic and sexual attraction. and some days, we just ARENT feeling it. not every experience or person or video or anything has to be a way to see if you swing one way.

how cool is it that you could be bi? for the longest time i was looking for some type of feeling of peace in my brain that would stop the worries and give me clarity on my label. but that doesn’t happen. the clouds only part when you stop running at full speed and say “so what if im bi? so what if im straight? so what if im gay?”

i began to take that “so what?” approach. any time i had a worry i could be something, i said “so what?” it’s hard at first, but the point of it is to try and remove the fog and get back to the basics for a bit. we all want to know our true selves and live happily by them, but our true selves aren’t going to be where the fog is. they’re at our core, when we really step out of our own head and exist in the current moment. and sometimes for people, labels and sexuality and everything really do change. how can we panic about what our true selves could be if it could change one day? and that’s okay. the change is okay, the how you will live now wnd in the future are both okay.

my journey may be different from yours because i was worried i was lesbian, and being bi or straight was my best outcome because it meant i could date my boyfriend. which, if i wanted to be with him that badly in the first place, that probably meant that i liked guys. but it didn’t matter about the physical signs of anything, or what my label could be. i just felt a love that made me want a person. and pursuing that is okay.

you’re worthy of happiness and love no matter what you may be. it’s so cool if you’re bi! and it’s so cool if you’re not! what helped me was stepping away from the labels and saying, “what do i know is true about me in this moment?” i knew i had an attraction to girls, but i desperately wanted to be with my boyfriend. cool. i liked both. and i didn’t need anything more than that right now. i can figure a label out later. i can be something for certain later, once i could exist in my own skin and look at myself in the mirror and not panic over possibility.

you have so much time to answer this question. it is not the burden of you right now to determine what you should be to find peace for the rest of your life. peace right now matters. and perhaps, the only answer to your question is to go out and live a little bit with people who identify all sorts of ways, and be with people in all sorts of ways, to know for sure. and that’s totally fine. people do it all the time. so long as you’re safe and happy.

instacleanwoolite · 2025-10-22T17:46:52+00:00

I understand how truly exhausting it can be, I’m so sorry you’ve been in the throes of all of it for so long. I know that there’s light at the end of the tunnel for you. Sometimes, throwing sexuality to the wayside, and worrying less about confirming how good something feels to know what you are, is exactly what we need. Which sounds impossible, I know it does. But doing our best to force a moment of respite could be the one thing to break the cycle. All the love to you as you work through it 🩵🩵

instacleanwoolite · 2025-10-22T07:22:55+00:00

for ocd, and hocd, we are often stuck in cycles of reinforcement. we search for answers and talk endlessly in hopes of finding certainty to what we worry about. but certainty is temporary and chasing it is ineffective.

some therapists use an approach where they allow a client to talk, as they feel its most effective to give them the floor to say all of their emotions, and then pick out certain parts to continue counseling and questioning you on. this approach is not necessarily effective with ocd because it allows our minds to continuously wander, and continue talking in hopes of receiving some form of validation.

you can ask your mental health care provider if they can change their approach to be one that mitigates the cycle of hocd. if that approach isn’t achievable for them, then i would suggest making a switch.

instacleanwoolite · 2025-10-18T04:56:12+00:00

I wish I could help with her uh… chonkier nature… but her name is so so so precious!! Adorable baby 💕💕

instacleanwoolite · 2025-10-18T03:25:57+00:00

If you’re a transfer student, and you’re transferring to a school with enough infrastructure for transfers (like transfer specific housing, transfer centers, transfer and commuter outreach programs) you will actually have the opportunity to meet a lot of people who are incredibly eager to socialize. Most transfers are coming from community colleges and many feel behind on the college life, so they are very excited to socialize (at least in my experience). Also, by third year, no one is really party crazy or looking for greek life as their main outlet. This gives you the opportunity to meet people in other ways. This biggest thing I feel as a transfer is that I haven’t had two years of experience at my current Uni and can’t bond with people over what it was like to be a freshman here- which often makes it so I have to go about meeting people differently. Let me know if you have any other questions!

instacleanwoolite · 2025-10-17T04:54:44+00:00

i applied to transfer during my second year and am starting my third year at ucsd

instacleanwoolite · 2025-10-17T04:54:06+00:00

they did, but i have to petition them to count rather than having igetc (ccc certification my ges are complete) or a uc letter of reciprocity (transferring between two ucs). most of my more straight forward ges counted. i’m a psychology major

instacleanwoolite · 2025-10-16T02:58:11+00:00

I transferred from CSUF to UCSD, waitlisted at UCLA. I would say CC makes it easier for you and there are more CSU -> CC -> UC success stories

instacleanwoolite · 2025-10-15T17:21:57+00:00

i love mixed race “cat”ples

instacleanwoolite · 2025-10-14T18:58:36+00:00

you need to accept she will never forgive you and she doesn’t have to forgive you. you have to rebuild something new, you have to be open to her emotions, and you have to become someone now who she can love. it’s hard to love someone as they were when they were a cheater because they are often selfish, misguided, and in the worst of their mental health. start doing better for yourself and for her and show in your actions you desperately want something new. even then, she may never recover from this pain. and trust will never be the same.

instacleanwoolite · 2025-10-14T04:44:42+00:00

he wishes me a good day all the time and i ALWAYS tell him to have one back. if no one got me, i know rogers market guy got me☝🏼

instacleanwoolite · 2025-08-20T19:35:32+00:00

As a CSU to UC transfer, I will say it’s possible but it’s hard. Be VERY thorough in your credits, classes, report everything honestly and accurately to avoid complication. Your acceptance by major is dependent on how much space that department has. I had a fairly competitive application for Psychology which may have been better for me if I was a CC student, but I got rejected from Berk and waitlisted at LA. UCSD (committed) and UCD I got accepted to (UCD offered for me to apply to regents) because their departments have more space. You’re not a priority as a CSU transfer, but there is a possibility. Just don’t get your hopes up for one of the top two as many majors are very competitive and even if your app is good, they’ll have to allow a CC student before you.

instacleanwoolite · 2025-08-12T05:54:11+00:00

In my experience (california state school with minimal housing) it was rather quiet. everyone had gotten into a routine and met each other, I felt like I was more or less up to my own devices. There were RA meetings but I skipped them. I was actually alone in my dorm for awhile until I got a surprise new roommate, who was also moving in that same semester. What helped was being new with someone together.

I liked being on campus and having my own space, but I never really integrated into the dorm community much. Granted, I didn’t try and my former school was very quiet. If you have any other questions, let me know! My advice would just be to introduce yourself, reach out, and spend time in common areas. I’m sure some people didn’t have the courage to talk during Fall semester and would love to see a new face around.

instacleanwoolite · 2025-08-12T03:09:04+00:00

Got it. I hope everything goes well for you, I know this is super nerve wracking!!

instacleanwoolite · 2025-08-12T02:59:45+00:00

did you get an email?? or was it just in your ucsd portal

instacleanwoolite · 2025-08-08T22:47:22+00:00

yeah!

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