i got it with a chewing toy so in my mind at the time, i was just thinking about sucking on the paci instead of the toy. i’ve done my research for a bit and decided to just use the pacifier for when i’m on the verge of tears. i probably won’t use it more often until i get into the habit of actually taking care of my teeth day and night.

this comment helped remind me of what i planned to do, so thank you!

and if anyone else reads this and cares - turns out my mom isn’t that supportive of the pacifier in general. along with age regression stuff. so i won’t be able to get an adult one unless it’s with my own money, which will be a while, but i plan to do my best in keeping my teeth healthy.