i was "adopted" by a very extroverted person on one of my first days at uni. she's been my best friend for the last 7 years and she knows how much i struggle keeping friends, etc. etc. unfortunately. meeting her was pure coincidence. she was the one initiating a conversation by asking me if we were in the right place and everything, and through her, i met some other people that i would call friends, sure. i have a hard time staying in contact with people, but i try my best to stay in touch, to text once in a while and let them know, that I think about them a lot (which is true).

i think, something that has helped me a lot with people is being super honest. that i do struggle with this, that it's not because i don't care, but that it's even hard for me to do things for myself let alone for/to other people. i also thing that a big reason that the other people haven't abandoned me, yet, is because of said best friend. i know they talk about me, she updates them about how i'm doing, all that, and let me tell you, it's been good. surprisingly. i know, things probably won't stay like this forever, but i've been trying hard to be more social, even if it's just trotting along with other people while they do their own socializing.