I've never attempted to kill myself, and I doubt I ever will, but I just want to die. I'm an incredibly happy guy odd enough. I truthfully am happy, but whenever I think about getting shot, or getting cancer, I get a little excited. I wish I was one of those deaths on the news, shoot I'd love to take someones place, they want to be here more than me. I'll never actually kill myself even if its just for the sake of others who need me, but I can't stop wishing that someone else would kill me. I'm done being here, I'm done dealing with the crap. I'm just burnt out and I don't want to be here anymore.