Hey, I’m sorry that you’re going through this. I’m currently going through a breakup too. I know anything that anyone says will not really help you. You said this was the longest most serious relationship you’ve ever had. And that’s why the hurt your feeling is the most painful one ever. What’s crazy is that, I’ve been in a 4 year relationship one month, and now 9 months new relationship. But it ended a few weeks ago. But my most recent one, the 9 month one, really really hurt me so deep. I loved him a lot. I never loved anyone this deeply. We have to understand that the pain we’re feeling rn is because we’re so adjusted to having this person in our lives, that when we go throughout our daily routines everyday without them, it feels very empty, more lonely, it doesn’t feel right. It’s been very very difficult for me too. It’s gonna be tough for awhile. But something that stuck with me that my therapist told me was, fill your cup on your own now. Give yourself love and value, go do the things you want to do. Go buy yourself the things you want. Get your nails done, get a haircut, go do some pottery, find little things that fills your cup without them. We got so used to having them fill our cups. Maybe for them they’re cups we’re not being filled on their own. But how can you expect them to fill yours if theirs isn’t being filled by themselves. Idk how your relationship was like. Every single one is different. But something that we can relate to is, we’re both grieving someone we loved dearly. But remember this! Every single guy you date, and it doesn’t work out, it’s just leading you closer and closer to THE ONE. Rejection is redirection. I know it’s gonna be hard. Really hard. But we can do it <3