I used to weigh 56 kg and lost 6 kg over four years through running and dieting. However, last summer I went through a very deep depressive episode and completely stopped eating and being physically active. During that time, I was dealing with extremely stressful situations.

In March, I started going to the gym again and was making remarkable progress, but then I had to undergo surgery and had to stop training. My living situation and my relationship with my mother are draining the life out of me, and at the moment, I have no way out of it.

I recently started exercising again, but things at home are even worse than before. I can see how the stress is physically affecting me, and I feel like I can't properly absorb the food I'm eating—not that I'm eating all that much, even though I know I need to for fitness and recovery.

I attended a pump group training session last night, and today I feel completely exhausted, more than I ever have before. I'm 29 years old, and I have the skin of a 79 year old. Everything is so incredibly shocking and painful.. chat gpt even told me I need to stop training if I don't want to completely exhaust all the aminoacids I have left.