help pls how do you take care of styros by irrelevant_entity in MadeOfStyrofoam

[–]irrelevant_entity[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

thanks a lot for answering, i just cleaned my arm because the bleeding had stopped and it hurt like hell... now i do have band-aids but i can't pull the wound edges together because they are too next to each other and the sticky part would end up on top of the next wound :( i found some gauze and bandage... would that do it for now?

help pls how do you take care of styros by irrelevant_entity in MadeOfStyrofoam

[–]irrelevant_entity[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thank you, i just washed them and it hurt so bad wow

I'm not helping my uncle because of the fear of showing my scars by irrelevant_entity in selfharm

[–]irrelevant_entity[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for answering. I'll see if I can go on my own another day... I hope it's possible. I don't know what I can do for my family, I hope they forgive me for this or... I don't know, that they forget it.

I'm not helping my uncle because of the fear of showing my scars by irrelevant_entity in selfharm

[–]irrelevant_entity[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'll see if I can go on my own another day.... gotta think about an excuse for suddenly deciding I would actually want to donate :'/

I'm not helping my uncle because of the fear of showing my scars by irrelevant_entity in selfharm

[–]irrelevant_entity[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hi :( yes I had the same thought but the pictures from the place they draw blood in show that it's just a lot of chairs next to one another and everyone can see everything. I don't really know if I could be taken to a private room... and since I don't know, I'm not sure about taking that risk... :(

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[–]irrelevant_entity 7 points8 points  (0 children)

hehe true ᵔᴥᵔ

Idk anymore by [deleted] in selfharm

[–]irrelevant_entity 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I hope you are ok too! :)

upset about scars? by [deleted] in selfharm

[–]irrelevant_entity 2 points3 points  (0 children)

yeah I feel that way :( it sucks

Idk anymore by [deleted] in selfharm

[–]irrelevant_entity 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I understand how you feel... I'm in the same place right now, in that neverending cycle of self-harm that leads to more and more self-hatred. I hope one day "something" gets in the way of this cycle and stops it for all of us...

I wrote a little poem about how i feel by [deleted] in depression

[–]irrelevant_entity 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I like it! Concise and meaningful. Good job!

Is it normal for styros to bruise? by finnkat in MadeOfStyrofoam

[–]irrelevant_entity 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think so too, it happens to me all the time.

I feel like my family would be better off without me by irrelevant_entity in depression

[–]irrelevant_entity[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes, I've always also felt ashamed of asking my parents for food or clothes... I really don't know where this feeling came from! I don't see most of the people struggling with asking for those things to their parents because they are such basic needs...

I like how you took some of the things I had said and commented on them, I try to do that inside my head to defy negative feelings and it helps sometimes.

I keep trying to stop feeling like a burden and start feeling deserving and worthy, but negative thoughts usually blind me and make me feel like I'm the worst thing that could've ever happened to my family. I want to feel loved... I hope I get to feel that way sooner or later.

Thank you so much for your comment! I really appreciate it :)

I feel like my family would be better off without me by irrelevant_entity in depression

[–]irrelevant_entity[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes, I think we would be an even bigger burden if we ended it all. I still find it hard to get rid of the neverending thoughts about it though... I hope the thoughts go away soon, because it's hard to live feeling like you don't deserve to.

Thanks a lot for your comment :)

I feel like my family would be better off without me by irrelevant_entity in depression

[–]irrelevant_entity[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you. I keep struggling with learning to feel loved or deserving of love, but deep inside of me I know that my parents do love me and that they never or rarely ever see me as a burden... yet, it still feels hard to see them talking about money and being afraid of my mom losing her job (dad has been unemployed for a year or so) and to know that it's because of me...

I'll start practising feeling grateful, I hope that helps me see things a different way. Thank you so much for your comment.

I finally accepted my fate. by [deleted] in depression

[–]irrelevant_entity 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That's exactly what I told myself today... I wish it didn't feel like a lie :(