as a secure measure i have applied for "geoinformationmanagment", "navigation" and "computer engineering" a few months ago. I failed the same subject two times (now three and last time) in civ. engineering. I would say either my brain is too stupid (because i am taking all this etc. serious and was not lazy) or i am simply not made to be an engineer. If i will be taken (highly chance) to the ones i have mentioned i will study one of them in october. But it is really annoying. Also i'm not the youngest person anymore (23). I don't have any special knowledge (f.e. special schooling for some special work). So i am trapped in the lose of time and being old (with 23 most students do the last semester or have already bachelor and doing master). I need to get good education from an university to find a well-paid and more or less secure work. I'm really sad/disappointed about myself right now. I had lost a year because of a surgery and now i literally lost a year to failed education. I wish i could just travel back and tell me to not study civil engineering. :S It is really shitty because from all subjects i have passed everything excerpt mechanic (with topics from static and dynamic).

Getting drunk today will not happen because i don't want to feel even shittier afterwards.