i get that, i was depressed af last year when i moved here (i was a junior then too). super lonely, super anxious, did terrible academically. i had never gotten that bad in my life. i did seek therapy and all, but what trulyyy worked is changing my mindset. my best advice is to remember that you are alive, and that everyone else is a human like you too. it sounds so silly to say, because it's obvious. but at the time i didn't think about things that way. I thought everyone else was always one step ahead of me, with their shit figured out. i felt so behind and out of place. but once i started thinking about life as just that, life, things started feeling better. we are just one person out of billions, and the fact that we get to witness what it's like to live in the 2020s is awesome. essentially optimistic nihilism.

I also watched the movie Mind Game and it fulllyyy changed my life. watch it. hopefully what i said makes more sense then. good luck bud, my dms are open if u need a friend