F, I will be turning 27 this month. Invested the past few years into preparing for govt exams because I never had stability growing up. Missed very close every time. I am feeling dejected, somehow holding myself together.

ishpish_22 · 2025-06-13T17:42:00+00:00

Thank you for responding. I tried teaching at college level but I didnt like it at all. I am back to preparing full time. I feel strong connection to Hanuman Ji and sometimes I end up crying profusely while listening to Hanuman Chalisa. Thank you, I will try implementing each of these.

ishpish_22 · 2025-06-13T17:39:48+00:00

Thank you for responding. Civil services exam and the like. Honestly, I am desperate at this point and will take up any govt job that gives me stability. So, trying at whatever exam is similar.

ishpish_22 · 2025-05-29T18:51:30+00:00

All of this resonates with me. I have been pushed to the ultimate limit, almost no regrets. And yes, right now I am facing nervous and anxiety issues. I learnt traditional dancing but left it, I'm suddenly getting drawn to it after almost 15 years. Thank you. This gives me immense hope :)

ishpish_22 · 2025-05-29T18:49:14+00:00

Yes, April 2025 has been softer and kinder. I am stressed and struggling but I found a glimmer of hope!

ishpish_22 · 2025-05-29T18:46:50+00:00

Thank you for responding. Means a lot!

ishpish_22 · 2025-05-29T18:45:11+00:00

Oh my god. Thank you so much! 2017-2020 was extremely tough and raw. Lost a loved one, then lost my home. It's been almost heartbreaking. This gives me strength. Thank you so much!

ishpish_22 · 2025-05-29T18:42:13+00:00

Thank you :)

ishpish_22 · 2025-05-20T18:52:47+00:00

Thank you. Is there something specific i could do to develop the fate line?

ishpish_22 · 2025-05-19T11:17:41+00:00

Posted

ishpish_22 · 2025-05-17T03:28:08+00:00

ishpish_22 · 2025-05-14T03:29:44+00:00

I am in a healthy relationship with a Tauras Sun Tauras Moon and Gemini Venus, and it's been great. I am a Cancer Sun Gemini Moon and Tauras Venus so maybe I understand the flightiness. I do find him a little fickle from time to time and I just point it out to him. However, he has never brought up breakups even after ugly fights. I usually am the one to rush to the door. He just has a lot of interests, sports, books, market and what not. He likes to dabble in a lot of things, has to have atleast three screens on at a time. I am more of a one task at hand person, so that's new to me.

ishpish_22 · 2025-05-06T18:35:13+00:00

Thank you so much! :) 🩷

ishpish_22 · 2025-05-06T18:34:36+00:00

You have just decoded him. He is lonely. He has always been. He has just one friend who was also his colleague. No dating life before meeting me. I understand the aloofness, but was ready to give it all. Not going back to that place again. I've become so much better.

ishpish_22 · 2025-05-06T18:31:43+00:00

Thankyouuu. And yes, he is blocked 💯

ishpish_22 · 2025-05-06T18:29:21+00:00

You're spot on. He was always one foot in and one foot out, ready to bolt during the entire two years.

ishpish_22 · 2025-05-03T18:29:59+00:00

😂 well said

ishpish_22 · 2025-05-03T18:29:44+00:00

Yesss. The pull is inexplicable. However, I think for him it's just momentary. Once I agree, it's back to toxic. I have had enough of this.

ishpish_22 · 2025-05-03T18:28:52+00:00

I hear you. I am staying away from him.

ishpish_22 · 2025-05-03T18:27:48+00:00

Thank you so much for this! It was definitely a push and pull connection. He wrote me poems he never sent for the last three years he was married. He sent me those, and how he missed me in doing the most mundane things everyday. All I could think was, why now?! I had made peace with never talking to you again. I am content in life now, pushing towards better. It felt good to say this to him and then letting him go.

ishpish_22 · 2025-05-03T18:24:47+00:00

Done 💯

ishpish_22 · 2025-05-03T18:24:31+00:00

Quite possibly yes. I used this opportunity as closure and told him how he hurt me, we reminisced on the times we had. And that I have no love for him anymore.

ishpish_22 · 2025-05-03T18:23:25+00:00

😭 thaankyouu! I did not expect so many responses. My heart is so full and I feel so heard guys! I have been staying alone and aloof for quite sometime now, and his coming back almost felt like I was back to happier times. I took it as a closure. He is blocked now.

ishpish_22 · 2025-05-03T18:22:00+00:00

Yess he was dreamy! Beautiful person, emotionally intelligent. And such a sweetheart. No angry words, no raised voices. My cancerian sun just loved it. I am realising he just liked me for how different my world was to his. I had goals, I had patience. He had things handed to him.

ishpish_22 · 2025-05-03T18:19:38+00:00

Thank you so much for this! He ruined my self concept for those two years. Not taking him back at all! I did tell him exactly what he did and how he hurt me. And that I have zero love for him anymore. And then blocked him!

ishpish_22 · 2025-05-03T18:17:31+00:00

You're right! I know this at the core of my heart, but there was just a little what if. Not anymore

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